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Hi all!

For the last 3+ weeks I have been waging a battle against my blog. Now, I’m not a techie kind of person. I am slowly learning how things work on a very superficial level. I know some very basic html, my theme was created with a click and drag program, so on an so forth.

So, of course, when I could get into my blog, it was panic moment.

As in, staring at a computer screen freaking the heck out.

I could log in, but that was about it.
I could view my blog… and seeing the 80+ extra page views I had on my pages was purely because I kept going to it making sure all of my stuff was still there.
I couldn’t even get to the dashboard.


I was in panic mode 100%

But thankfully with some help of a fantastic forum of people… I was able to get back into it. With a few new plugins, my stuff is safe.

Worst case scenarios started coming through. Like some super secret hackers like Helix (I’ve been watching way too much Arrow, ya’ll) had broken in and started messing with things.

Of course, that wasn’t the case. But my overactive imagination definitely went there.

So we’ll be back on our regularly schedule programming here soon!

Caffeine hates me

There are three very specific things that I drink regularly.


I’m not a soda drinker. I might have a 20 oz soda once every couple of months, and even then it goes flat before I have a chance to drink it all. I’ll drink juice or milk about the same amount. I don’t like sweet drinks, something about that cloying syrupy taste drives my nuts.

So it’s no surprise that when I do drink something it’s one of the three things.

You all know I’ve been trying to get more water into my system, which unfortunately means my number one drink of choice is coffee.

I can easily go through a pot of coffee myself. Josh and I can bust out two pots of coffee with little issue. I could blame my HP 9 3/4 mug because it’s so big it holds about 20 ounces. Seriously, I’m not kidding. It holds the same amount of coffee as my HP travel mug. But in reality, I just freaking love coffee.

If I don’t get the amount of caffeine my body is used to I get those lovely little caffeine withdrawal symptoms.

Headache, irritability, lethargy… oh my.

But the headaches, man. They get so bad that my eyeballs start to hurt. And then, of course, I sit here thinking “I NEED COFFEE” which ups the ante and so on and so forth.

Apparently, the recommended amount of caffeine per day is only about 400mg???

And also apparently, each ounce of the brand of coffee I drink has about 12mg of coffee per ounce. I’ll let you guess how much I’m getting, though I can say it’s at least twice the recommended amount.

So, I’ve decided to detox.

Although, that word sounds like I’m being a drama queen. Detoxing? Really? But hey, if the shoe fits.

I’ll be setting up a doctor’s appointment here soon, not just for the coffee issue but for just a general physical. And figured I might as well bring up the vast amounts of coffee I’m drinking and see if there are any tricks I can do.

But while I’m here…
Anyone have any ideas on how to cut back on the caffeine without feeling completely like crud?

GAINED – Weigh in Wednesday

As I’m sure you noticed, I was absent last week. I didn’t fall off the face of the Earth like I usually do. Promise.

Last week was crazy busy. Was downstate for two days for training for my job. Clocking in a ridiculous amount of hours for my work week, not including the hotel stay. Plus running errand when I had a chance. Plus getting ready for school shopping. Plus re-apply to college (yeah, you read that). And a half a million other things.

Along with a crazy busy week, came some crazy bad decisions.

Road trip food (a.k.a Fritos, Twizzlers, M&M with Almonds, and Arby’s…twice)
No attempts at any actual exercise on my part
Complete disregard to making healthy choices in general.

Yeah, it wasn’t the best week last week. And I obviously missed last weeks weigh in. I DID manage to weigh myself the morning before I headed downstate. But, there was hardly any time to actually write a post about it. So, I figured I’d just go ahead and group it all in in one little handy weigh in.

Last weigh in: 207.6
This weigh in: 208.2
Gained: .6 pounds
Total lost from highest: 63 pounds

Whomp whomp

Considering it was half a pound gained in two weeks, I can’t really complain too much. I’ve had moments where I’ve gained several pounds over the course of two weeks. So I’m not going to fret over it too much.

I’m actually being proactive this time around. Gained half a pound isn’t a big deal. Caught myself gaining half a pound, HUGE DEAL.

So rather than tucking my tail between my legs and using it as an excuse to scarf down whatever the hell I want to eat (she says as she guiltily hides a snack cake wrapper under her leg). I’m just going to push forward.

See, look at me go!

Growth and initiative!

Silver lining, right?

Too expensive to start losing?

“Why is it so expensive to start losing weight?”
Ya’ll, I get it.

You get in that motivation to lose weight and all of a sudden it looks a little bit like this

New workout clothes – BOUGHT IT
Gym Membership – SOLD
Ultra precise down to the ¼ gram stainless steel guilded with gold food scale – MUST HAVE IT
Bathroom scale that also measures body fat percentage – GOT TO HAVE IT
Water bottle system with scheduled alarms for intake – MINE
Pills and capsules to lose an extra .2 pounds a week! – CHA CHING

And so on and so forth.

Then tack on spending a good $200 a month more on buying purely organic low calories fruits/veggies/packaged dinners and snacks.

We’ve all been there. We’ve all done that.

Because making the decision to lose some weight is always exciting! But we start figuring out all the things we think we need right now, and suddenly spending $500 a bucks to lose some weight isn’t realistic, or even feasible! It somehow always got to that point where I would get so discouraged because it’s expensive to even start losing weight.

That little dollar sign is (at least for me) one of the biggest deterrents to losing weight there is.

And many weight loss companies bank on that! (see what I did there?)

Rather, why not get yourself your priority things to start losing weight. And go cheap. At this point it doesn’t matter. Eventually it will make sense to upgrade some things or add new things to your weightloss tool box.

But for now, I haven’t spent that much at all over the last year. And I’ve been managing to lose weight still.

Don’t believe me? Here’s some transparency for you.

My priorities – drinking more water, properly measuring my food, keeping track of my stats, and logging my food.

Water bottle – $14.99
Food Scale – $9.99
Measuring Cups – $1.00
Bathroom Scale – 18.99
Measuring Tape – $0.89
Notebook for journaling – $0.99

Grand total $46.85

That’s all I’ve spent in the last year of losing weight. In the last year. That averages to about 4 bucks a month. I paid for that in my first month simply by not going out to eat a few times.

I didn’t need a $40 food scale. I just need a scale that weighs food. I’m not looking to be super precise at this moment. Same with measuring cups. I’m looking to estimate and get a better visual of my food. Not obsess about the 3 calorie difference in 10 grams of food.

I didn’t need a scale that tells you your weight, tracks your weight, tells you your body fat percentage, your height, favorite book, and what color underwear you’re wearing. I just need a scale that shows my weight. And I don’t need some $10 measuring tape. It’s a piece of plastic with numbers on it

So on and so forth.

Now, I’m not talking about food here. That’s an entirely different conversation. These are just those initial impulse buys that people (myself included) fall into when there is that little burst of motivation to lose weight.

When I started losing weight I actually made a list of things. You all should know by now that I love me some lists. A lot. To figure out just how much I was going to spend to start off on this crazy ride I call a journey. And I went step by step to figure it out, overthinking at it’s finest. And managed to start losing weight off of 46 bucks.

I’m ok with that.

Now, am I saying that I’ll never buy another thing? Of course not. Eventually I might get that gym membership, or a food scale that is more precise. I might actually go and buy myself some actual workout clothes that aren’t faded baggy t-shirts and ratty shorts. But for now, it was easier for me to start losing weight when I wasn’t concerned about how much it was going to cost me to get the ball rolling.

Down the road, it’d make sense to buy a new fitness watch. But for now, I can live without.

My BIG weight loss secret! Weigh-in Wednesday

Here we go!

Last weigh in: 208.3
This weigh in: 207.6
Lost: .7 pounds
Total lost from highest: 62.4 pounds

Every time I lose weight I get at least a couple “how did you do that?” comment from people.

Made me think about that this time around. I’ve been posting for a month. I’ve had four weigh ins and I’ve lost 4.7 pounds!


A full month of recorded losses with no gains.


Ok, super dramatic, but still. It’s not a huge secret?

So these are the things I’ve been doing

  • Eating around 1800 calories per day (+/- 100) and actually logging them
  • Drinking plenty of water
  • Trying to have a good balance of “good vs bad” calories (ex: 300 calories of avocado is better than 300 calories of candy bar) about a 80/20 balance (Yes, I’m still eating candy bars AND losing weight)
  • And getting moving to burn some calories in any way I can

There you have it. That’s it. That’s all I’m doing differently. And I’ve lost 4.7 pounds in this last couple weeks.

It sounds like a cop out…and too good to be true. It sounds like one of those weird ad things that starts off with “DO THIS AN LOSE 10 POUNDS IN A WEEK.”

I don’t have a fast acting plan. And I’m not changing a bazillion things, I’m just being more mindful.

And believe me, it’s not like it’s any easier. It’s not like I woke up and was like BOOM lets do this.

I still have to consider if it’s really worth eating that full King Size DARK CHOCOLATE Twix, or if I’m totally fine with a normal size one. Or if I’m really actually hungry enough for another two tacos. Or if I’m hungry at all, or am I bored? Do I really need that extra cup 20oz mug of coffee, or should I start getting my water in?

I still drive home from work exhausted, but turn on the radio and dance it out in the car just to get some movement in. Or set my timer for 10 minutes of my uber beginners Yoga because 10 minutes is all my poor hips can handle. Or “I fucking hate squats” and pump out my measly 10 before I feel like my legs are going to give out.

I’m still making changes.

I’m going from eating 2500+ calories a day down to 1800. I’m forcing myself to move, when my body is perfectly ok sitting around for HOURS on end watching Netflix. I’m reminding myself to drink water constantly.

It’s still hard.
It’s just not as hard as it was.

I’m not following some “push yourself to the point of pain” exercise thing, I’m not eating 1400 calories and ONLY 1400 calories, I’m still eating crap and good stuff. So on and so forth. It’s just a balancing act.

And a balancing act that seems to be working right now!!!

So cheers to another 0.7 pounds lost!