Skin Care Madness

I used to have great skin. That’s not a bragging moment, that’s the cold hard truth. When I was younger (read:teenager) I thought I was having a huge breakout when I’d get one or two pimples every couple of months. And that was even with me hardly ever washing my face, I was pretty good with just using Stridex face wipes. That was it. Glorious blemish free skin. Which of course, at the time, I was thrilled about.

Now…10 years later.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY FACE?

I have pimples.

As in, wayyyy more pimples than I’ve ever dealt with. And they’re constant little bumps that just hang out and never disappear.

I’m not 100% sure when the pimples came. Could have been wearing make-up more than “oh! It’s prom!” or this GODAWFUL IUD, or maybe I’m just getting older but things have changed.

So yeah, pimples. All over my face. It’s ridiculous. And regardless of the sheer amount of Googling I like to do for random issues like that (chicken skin, breaking hair, how to get rid of rough foot skin – I warned you, I’m disgusting) I never really looked too far into skin care.

My skin care regimen was simply go to the department store and grab any bottle that was for “normal” skin that promised to get rid of black heads and carry on my merry way… which included washing my face whenever I remembered.

Yeah. Maybe I’ve found the culprit?

Well, while on the hunt for a new planner for work we made a little pitstop into Sephora. And a simple question of “Could you help me find a shade of foundation?” turned into a 45 session of gadgets that tested skin type, color, and a pretty informative lesson on skin care.

So here’s what I learned:

1. I DO NOT have normal skin (thanks a lot online quizzes) apparently I have Oily Skin
2. Apparently Josh has known this and was very informative with his “she always wakes up super shiny” #thanksjerkface
3. My perfect shade is Urban Decay All Nighter 7.75 (and might I add it’s FOURTY FRICKIN DOLLARS – but ohhh so worth it)
4. What the hell moisturizer is for and
5. I probably shouldn’t be washing my face whenever I think about it. “Twice a day and follow with moisturizer”

So they loaded me up with some samples, a bottle of face wash (which, yes… I have been using), and sent me on my merry way.

Now, it’s probably too soon to see if anything has changed on my face dramatically. But I’ve been taking care of my face skin more in the last 10 days than I probably have in my entire life. Washing it twice a day, actually taking off my make up, using moisturizer… the whole 9 yards.

I have noticed little changes. Like I don’t wake up as oily, probably because I’m not going to sleep oily and covered in make up. And a few of my littlest spots are fading, but it’s not some instant change.

Perhaps, I should have looked more into skin care earlier? Hindsight is 20/20 I suppose.

But the guy I saw in the store said I should see huge results in 6 weeks, so we’ll see?

Here goes nothing!

My body – Wednesday Weigh-in

I’ve always been hyper-critical of my body. That goes without saying. I can point out my flaws immediately. I have lovehandles that will probably always be present, I have cellulite and stretchmarks (though, I don’t hate on the stretchmarks much these days), I have back fat and armpit fat, so on and so forth.

I know plenty of women who do this, regardless of size. Hell, I’m willing to bet every woman (and man) does this. And even though I’m losing weight because I’m not happy with my health and my body, I have recently (as in within this last week) started to remind myself of the things that I love about my body-despite my flaws.

I’ve decided if I don’t remind myself of these things, I can easily see myself getting even more critical about my body. Because I’ve been there..and that leaves me with what? Tons of negativity.

Whereas if I remind myself of the things I love, I think it’ll be easier for me to get to that point where there are more things that I love than I don’t like. Opposed to getting to what I think is my “ideal” weight, and still picking out every little thing about myself I don’t like.

So… here we go… I’ll start off small, three things about my body that I love.

My legs – They may be big, but they’re strong and I have pretty killer calves
My broad shoulders – I may not be able to wear a halter top, but I can rock a strapless dress/shirt like nobody’s business!
My height – hide and seek sucks, but I’ll always stand out in a crowd

Sure, the list might not be long…but it’s a start.

Anyways, since it’s Wednesday, I’ll cut to the chase.

My third weigh-in since being back!

Last weigh in: 210.0
This weigh in: 208.3
Lost lost: 1.7 pounds
Total lost from highest: 61.7 pounds

Wooohooo!

Another loss, and I’ll very happily take it!

So, until next time,

Reward yo’self

I’d posted last week about my new Goals page! and also mentioned creating little rewards for those things.

Sure, sure. What could be more rewarding than losing the weight? Isn’t losing weight and being/feeling healthier reward enough?

Um, howboutnah

The thing is, I’ve already lost the weight. Not all of it, but a good chunk of weight. I’m re-losing weight, and still have 30 pounds to re-lose before I’m back to my lowest weight.

That’s really lacking in the motivation department.

And sure, I’ve done things that are worth being motivated about. Every time I see the scale dip down or try on clothes and notice how baggy they are, it’s definitely motivating. But, I want motivation beyond that.

“Only 30 pounds until my lowest weight, LET’S DO THIS.” is great… but “Only 30 pounds until my lowest weight AND a dye job??? LET’S DEFINITELY DO THIS” is infinitely better.

So, I created little rewards for myself for when those times come. And each one is lined up with a goal that I have… including the NSV ones. So, booyah! Don’t get me wrong… I doubt I’ll reward myself for if I can ever do the splits again, but who knows!

So, starting with the scale/number goals:

Lose 25% of my highest weight/ONEderland/Pre-pregnancy weight
Take myself on a much needed date

Get back to my lowest weight/lose 80 pounds total
Get my hair dyed

Lose 100 pounds total
Get MY tattoo

Start maintaining/Hit my goal weight
PHOTO SHOOT

Maintain for 6 months
Buy a new wardrobe and SHOES

And, now some of my NSV goals!

Run a 5k
Get my 5k shirt (long story)

Get my girl power on in Mudderella! (and show some Domestic Violence support)
Own Your Strong gear! (is that a thing?) And sign up for a self defense class

Run a 10k
Never run again! Kidding, my second 5k shirt

Do a handstand/master a yoga post
New yoga mat

Go shopping without hating it
Buy myself a “oh no she didn’t” outfit

There you have it. Some of the rewards for some of my goals! I’ll update this list as we go along and I accomplish some goals – even if that’s right on my goals page.

We’ll see how it goes!

Measurement realization – Weigh in Wednesday

You know those “aha” moments people have? I had them when I was 264, and I had them again and again. The last time I had that moment, that kick started my year long trek of getting on board. Was actually a girl at work.

One on my friends/coworkers was measuring herself, yes… water bottle talk at it’s finest. She was all shocked what her numbers were. Now, she’s thin. She’s this cute little ball of yoga and energy. I even told her “Are you kidding me? I’d love to have your figure!” before she started measuring herself.

What shocked me was as she measured herself, in a very scientific method of string and a measuring tape… you know, the straight metal ones that you’d pull out of a tool box…the numbers sounded very familiar.

I pulled up my blog on my phone to my last measurements post and I was blown away.

Her measurements were only about 1-1.5 inches smaller than mine were at my smallest point. Excluding those damn lovehandles of mine.

Nothing like perspective, right?

So that’s what motivated me to get moving. That was the pinnacle moment back in 2016 that kicked my butt into gear.

Now, admittedly my measurements hadn’t changed all that much from 2015-2016. But here’s a little snippet if you don’t feel like going back to that.

And I actually haven’t measured myself since that moment.

So… here goes nothing. Let’s see what 25 pounds looks like!!!

Bust – 42.5″    -1.5
Waist – 36.5″   -2
Hips – 46″      –1.5
Lovehandles – 44″   -6
R thigh – 27″    -1
L thigh – 26.5       –1.5
R arm – 14″     –.5
L arm – 14.5″     -0
Neck – 14.5″      -0

YAY! I’d really like to do some backflips to that -6 for my lovehandles. Those were getting out of control.

And since this is supposed to be my weigh-in day, I suppose I’ll post that too.
Harrumph

Last weigh in: 212.3
This weigh in: 210.0
Lost lost: 2.3 pounds
Total lost from highest: 60 pounds

And a secondary YAY!

Thank you water weight? Weight weight? Fat weight? Who know? But I’m pretty darned pleased.

Til next time

#goals

We’re talking about goals here, folks.

For some reason, all I can hear is Rihanna hollering “Goals” to the tune of “workworkworkworkwork.” Don’t ask me why, I’m currently working off of very little sleep and even less coffee.

But, I was going to write this whole long post of all of my fitness/weight related/non-scale victory goals. And realized how in the world am I going to keep updating them without just copying posts or digging through archives.

So I’ve made a whole new page!

So go visit my goals page. I had that list of goals for a while, I even had the goals page sitting in my unpublished list of pages. I just never got around to finishing it. Which is why you’ll see my first goal “crossed off” from 2015.

But I have a whole slew of goals. Some are number goals…losing a certain amount of weight. Getting back under 200! Losing a certain percentage of my starting weight. That’s pretty obvious.

Then there are the Non-scale victory goals.

Things like running a 5k, pull ups and push ups, wearing my pre-pregnancy clothes without bursting the seams. That kind of stuff.

Eventually (as in soon) I’d like to have little rewards for when I hit certain mile stones. Like dying my hair for the first time in 2 years… little things to work towards. As though hitting the milestones aren’t reward enough, amirite?

So. Go visit my page. Take a looksee.

While you do that, I’m doubling up on the coffee.