Back on the wagon (again)

It’s been nearly a year since I ended my Diary of a Chunky Chica blog. It wasn’t the easiest decision, but for unseen reasons (haha, I’m cheap and I was farrr too lazy to pay for it when I was supposed to, oops). But in my defense of laziness and broke-ness I didn’t realize that buying back domains was so expensive. $700. Yeah, I wasn’t that attached to the domain I had. So in came Nicole Leaving Plumpville. Woot!

Farewell Diary of a Chunky Chica

In the last year I wasn’t all that good. I realized how much keeping myself accountable through blabbing my weight all through the webbie world actually helped me. Granted I had only lost 25 pounds, but it was 25 pounds that I had had such a hard time losing without the support and cheering I had gotten though using DoaCC as that medium for frustration, venting, and support.

So, I’ve gained some weight back.  The stress of being “the new girl” at work and leaving behind all the people I had gotten to know, plus a new position, plus a million other factors (happiness, sadness, stress, and your typical busy lifestyle) definitely helped me gain some of the weight back, but ultimately it was one too many Diary Queen trips and “Big Macs are only a dollar after midnight” crap (DAMN YOU McDONALDS!).

As melodramatic as I am being right now, I haven’t gained all that much back. But just for the sake of being a drama queen and my absolute love of cliffhangers, I’m not telling you my official weight until my weigh-in day (Wednesdays).

But let me tell you something… it is sooo much harder losing weight once you’ve essentially quit. I constantly remember that commercial with the old guy that say “A body in motion tends to stay in motion, and a body at rest tends to stay at rest.” It is so true. Don’t get me wrong, I would “start back up” every once in a while. But all-in-all I would quit.

I got so used to working hard, watching what I was eating, and being conscientious of what I was doing with my body. But making the inadvertent decision to stop what a horrible idea. Now I’ve been fighting with myself over a year to get started all over again. And sure, there were weeks that I would lose some poundage but of course I would eventually gain it back. It was this insane up and down rollercoaster of weight loss/gain.

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Any excuse for a picture of Landon.

I had the kind of mindset of “Oh it’s not that much, I can lose it” the same issue that has plagued so many people who have lost a ton of weight. Granted, I wasn’t done losing weight. I had lost a good 85 pounds, which was awesome. But gaining some of it back wasn’t all that “awesome.” But it happened so slowly that half the time I was giving myself half assed excuses.

It’d be a pound or two in October, and then another pound in November, three pounds in December kind of thing. And the whole time I was bouncing up and down. It was nuts.

So by the time I realized that things were out of hand was about six months into it where I just kind of threw my hands up. I stopped weighing myself, I didn’t worry that clothes were too tight “oh, I’m probably bloated.”

So I’ve been kind of “well damn” about it. Still not all that motivated about it (A gym membership I bought back in October and have still yet to use speaks volumes)

But not too long ago I tried on little black dress I wore back in September 2012 and when it couldn’t fit anymore was about the time I realized things were seriously getting out of hand.

And yes, there was a seam that tore

So I reminded myself the reasons I wanted to lose weight, got this new blog all ready to go, and put it in my mind that I am definitely going to be trying harder to get this crap going again.

So here’s to getting back on the wagon (this time for REALS) and getting this done!

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Motivation!!!

Every single person needs some kind of motivational tool…hell, I have NUMEROUS…..

Everytime I feel myself getting to a point where I feel like I am slowly down I do something new.

1) Magnets on the fridge with funny inspiration quotes….


2) Mini magnets on the fridge with weights on them…every time I lose weight I take one down, when I gain I put one back

 

and my favorite one….

 

A goals poster… drew one and wrote all my goals on it…about 40… when I reach a goals I’m gonna mark it off and put 10 dollars in an old pickle jar….. by the time I finish the goals I’ll have 400 dollars to spend!!! I’ve got all kinds of goals – reach my goal weight, run 5k, walk 150 miles…that kind of thing…

 

Everything is made by me….so it’s more personal… kind of like “hey… look at me!!!” you know?

Anything… keep an outfit from when you start your journey so when you are done you can put them on and see how much you’ve lost, make a mural of how you’d like to look. Every time you feel like you are slowing down do something to mix it up. I like to make my own stuff only because I’m an arts and crafts kind of person….it gets me twice as excited to keep going because I now have an excuse to make something.

Just really anything you can think of to get you going will help.

Some people take pictures of themselves in their underwear and stick it in the fridge
Some people will wear weights that equal how much they have lost and walk or run a mile in it
Others write themselves letters

It all depends on what you think will help you…. motivation is a great tool to help keep you on track……

Give it a try!

~Nicole

Mind Over Body????

So… I’ve come to the realization that I feel a hell of a lot bigger than I actually am….

Example:

This picture is from mybodygallery.com….a great resource for an estimation on what you look like (or could look like)… you give your height, weight (or clothing size), and your body shape (don’t know yours? Check out my “cheat sheet pics”)…. and you can see *rough* estimates….

But, anywho… this is what I feel I look like

but…. according to my measurements I actually look closer to this

Now… to be honest for a second I was all like “what is my picture doing on this website? Wait, I’ve never seen that couch before”.. same skin tone…and what I thought my body looked like.

But the second picture (A girl named Laura… check out her weight loss story AMAZING….. lauramustloseweight.com)

All three of us are the same height…. the first woman is about 60 pounds heavier than the second.

The ironic thing is that the second picture (Laura) has the SAME EXACT measurements as myself…

Kind of scary how much your mind can play tricks on you. Quite literally, a mind of matter… or a mind over body… kind of trick.

So…with this… I am going to leave you all with a warning…

Make sure someone (a doctor, honest friend or family member) is there to help you. By all means, lose the weight yourself…. just make sure at least someone is there who can kind of keep your mind in check…..A lot of people who lose weight will continue to lose weight even after they have hit a healthy weight…. only because they see someone bigger in the mirror. A lot of eating disorders start this way.

I’m paranoid, personally. I don’t want to be skin and bones…. I want to be healthy…. so I know I have a select group of people who will make sure I remain grounded in terms of how my body looks.

My boyfriend does this for me.

Good Luck!!!!

~Nicole