On the mend – Progress – Weigh in Wednesday

Yesterday’s post was a doozie, wasn’t it? Phew. But all-in-all I feel like I’m on the mend. Physically and emotionally. Which is great! Hello, progress… that is great!

One of the biggest things, weight related, that I had an issue with was dropping to 192 pounds. Normally, I would have been thrilled for that. But I knew it was far too quick, and wasn’t a conscious effort to treat my body the way it should be treated. It was all from walking 20,000+ steps per day and eating not nearly enough to compensate that.

Do me a favor. Never let yourself become too busy to take care of yourself. Ok?

Promise?

Anyways, like I said. I spent a lot of time fixing somethings. Leaving two out of three jobs. Taking a hard look at my life and my weight in general. Figuring out ways to make my life what I want out of it, not what I felt like it had to be because of money or jobs or whatever.

Took a while.

So, like I’d said. I had gotten down to 192 pounds.

It shouldn’t come as a surprise that once I had time to eat like I was supposed to, and without the extra moving from the walking at my other two jobs, I gained weight.

I went from 192 pounds allllll the way back up to 205. I’d gained back close to 15 pounds. To be honest, there was a little bit of “well shit, that sucks” in there, but it reinforced the idea that I hadn’t lost the weight the right way. I figure that’s a good indication of not doing it right. My body rebelled and was like “FINALLY A FULL MEAL! PACK IT ON BEFORE THIS CRAZY PSYCHO TAKES IT AWAY AGAIN!” So it made me feel better to see the scale go up.

I’d like to apologize to my sweet little body for putting up with my crap.

So, that 205 was about 8 weeks ago.

So, here we are today!

Last weigh-in: 205
This weigh-in: 198.8
Lost: 6.2
Total lost from highest: 65.2

Yasssss!

I’m obviously not sitting at 192, but it’ll come.

So many little things changed. But the best things that changed was that I was eating more, and I had just started “trying” to exercise. To be perfectly honest, it was really nothing more than making sure I got my step goal in and then I dabbled in a couple of little things here and there.

But it boiled out to under a pound a week. Which is slow turtle-like progress. But at least it’s good progress.

So, I’ve been able to maintain that for a good 8 weeks. Of course some days were harder than others, some days I relished in lazy days with pajamas and Netflix. But hey, variety is the spice of life, right? So the goal is continuing.

Guess who is on her way to Pinterest to pin ridiculous amounts of motivational posts.

10 points to Slytherin if you said me!

Priority – Weigh in Wednesday

I have not done a damn thing in regards to this weight loss stuff.

Go figure.

I’ve spent more of my time dealing with other things. Other “pressing” things. Things, that in my mind, are more important than my health.

Which is ridiculous. I know it is. I should be my first priority. I should be more focused on my health. But, geez, when you’ve got 90 million things to remember and focus on, who’s going to remember to take some time to go for a walk, or drink more water, or the other dozen things a person should do to keep themselves healthy?

So between everything that has gone on in the last 4 weeks, my health in general was definitely put on the back burner. (Let’s discuss how many doctor’s appointments I should have made for myself in the last year vs how many I attended.)

And because of that, my weight was put on the back burner.

Story of my life.

Last weigh-in: 211.8
This weigh-in: 215.6
Gained: 3.8
Total lost from highest: 55.1

I’m actually shocked. I’d assumed I’d gained a whole lot more than that. I actually just told someone at work that I’ve must have gained 15 pounds. Which, sure, 15 pounds in a month isn’t super realistic… but I’m sure you know where I was going with that.

But it’s how the story goes.

It’s not like weight will just fall off without thinking about it. If I don’t think about it, I don’t make the necessary decisions to lose weight. If anything, obviously, I gain weight.

But how on Earth do I sit here and consciously remind myself daily to make better choices? I’ve got to-do lists that are minimally 25-30 items long (I wish I was exaggerating). Every.Single.Day. Work related, kid related, home related, future related…. just all of it. Every single day.

And that’s life for a majority of us.

But finding a way to remind myself that I need to do something, needs to be added to that to-do list.

How do I remember, between all the doctor’s appointments, school functions, meetings, phone calls, emails, snail mail, holidays, and so on…. to take care of myself?

Then let’s tack on the fact that my priorities are jacked. How do I remind myself to choose to my health and well being while I’m on the phone with a college, or grocery shopping, or drafting an email, making a schedule, or packing lunches while cleaning?

I’ve asked around and I generally get “well, you just have to do it.”

#nothelpful

I could set an alarm on my phone? Yeah, that was real helpful for my water intake. Har Har har.

So that is on my to-do list.

Numero Uno on the list.

A way to remind myself to be healthier.

As sad as it is, that’s where I’m sitting.

Weeks of consecutive weight loss: ZERO

Running a 5k? Still?

Do you all remember back in December when I’d said something about running a 5k in September?

Well, here we are in April, and that is still the goal. Who’da thought, four months later and that’s still a thing? Considering, when I showed up training last month and our Superwoman Training Head Honcho Superwoman was still 100% gung-ho all abouts it (which of course, made me all gung=ho about it)? Yep, still happening. Do you see what I mean about The WonderWoman of Commitment???

Anyways, still hoping to do the Color Run!

Unfortunately the only ones in our state happened on Monday and it’ll come again in July. I keep obsessively checking the website to see if they’ve updated through to November (we’d heard that they generally have on in November), but they haven’t. #boo

Granted, November pushes our date well past the original September, but still. I’m still pretty optimistic that they’ll have on closer to our date, there is still a city in my state that hasn’t been listed as far as dates go, and I even went and signed up for a notification for when that time comes.

We’re in uncharted territory, people! I don’t believe I’ve actually ever signed up to receive updates. It’s not the same as signing up to actually run it, but still. Baby steps.

So, aside from that preparation… I’m getting ready to start the c25k program all over again.

It’s early, but it takes 9 weeks. And I have no clue when the day is going to be posted. Earlier I start the earlier I can finish. Silver Lining.

Biggest problem right now is the snow. In case you didn’t know, Michigan has no understanding of how seasons work. We have a good 4-8 inches in my area. Definitely not jogging/walking weather for someone who hates running, and also hates being cold. I’m really hoping all this snow is gone by May (how sad is it that us Michiganders can’t be sure if we’ll still have snow in MAY?!) so I can get a good head start in the whole business of running a 5k in general.

I figure if I get going on this devil’s errand as early as possible, I might be in good shape for when I ACTUALLY RUN A 5K.

We shall see!

Steps in the Right Direction

Like I said in last post, I’ve been making little steps in the right direction. Which includes making some better choices.

Those little changes have helped me lose some weight in the last week and a half. Granted, it’s probably all water weight. But I’m determined to keep making some changes.

Like actually choosing some healthy options, who knew that was an option??? Drinking more water. The little things. I even have a new set of measuring cups to keep an eye on portion control, which let me tell you… I forgot just how much a serving size of something was.

I haven’t gone all level 10 weight loss mode, but more like a solid level 4.

But the biggest change is that I’ve started using a FitBit (yeah, yeah, I’m a little late to the party)… and I’m really in-love with it! I might actually have to buy one, this one is borrowed… testing the waters.

The little thing that reminds me to get off my butt and walk. I’m a pretty sedentary person, remember? But, it’s a nice reminder that I’ve been doing paperwork too long and I need to move. It’s also fun to see how many steps I get throughout the day. Which, aren’t as much as I would like. But that’s kind of the point, right?

I’ve also added a water reminder to my phone, because apparently, I’ve become one of those people who have to be prompted to drink some water. This thing sends me a notification to remind me to actually drink some water. Which is sad because I used to drink tons of water without any issue, but here we are.

There were half a million to choose from, but seriously. That little guy is super cute.

So right now, my main focus have been to keep a better track of what I have been eating, making myself get up and move more (even if it is just walking around or climbing some stairs), and upping my water intake.

Baby steps again, that’s kind of the catch 22 of yo-yo weight loss. At some point you have o go back to basics, because jumping right back into where you left off doesn’t work. Easiest way to fail, that method hasn’t been working, have to do something different.

Kudos for progress?

Like a Yo Yo – Weigh in Monday?

Let’s just get right down into the nitty gritty. I’ve lost weight. Like a yo-yo. (Please sing that to the tune of Madonna’s Like A Virgin, I am.) Back and forth. Whatever. To top it off, it’s been a long time since my last post way back in the beginning of February. That’s rough.

Worse yet, it’s been even longer since my last weigh in.

My first weigh in of the New Year landed on the 3rd of January. We’re in April.

Can you guess what happened?

Yo-yo weight loss/gain.

Which is why I’m posting this on a Monday, not a Wednesday. Jump right in with both feet before I have two whole days to chicken out and fall back into not posting.

Now, this whole yo-yo thing sucks because there was a solid time frame there that I hadn’t done the whole yo-yo thing.

I get into these modes of motivation where nothing can stop me. And generally those pop up when I’ve stepped on the scale and noticed that I’ve gained a few pounds (try 10?). So I’d go through and fix everything, change everything, lose a ton of weight and be proud and happy. Then hit a wall and gain it back.

I’m sure you all know what I’m talking about. That little revolving door of weight loss.

So, here we go. A million weigh ins later.

Last weigh-in: 211.2
This weigh-in: 215.8
Gained: 4.6
Total lost from highest: 55.3

Gaining 4.6 pounds in 4 months might not seem like that big of deal. But the issue is that I kept gaining and losing. At one point I was ecstatic because I was sitting at 206. I was only 10 pounds over my pre-pregnancy weight. Then I stepped on the scale a few weeks later and saw I was at 218. And so on and so forth, and higher.

And that’s where I lost it.

Little bit will be turning 3 here in a few months. I’ve spent 3 years fighting/not fighting/fighting/not fighting the weight I gained. 3 years ago.

I got so close, and then blew it. Again

Awesome.

The other thing that hit me, April 6th put me at 6 months before my birthday. 6 months before I turn 29.

I’ve spent all of my 20s fighting my weight. Granted, I spent all of my teens worried about my weight. But I’d never thought in a million years that I would spent my ENTIRE twenties worried about my weight. I don’t want to be sitting at 35 like “Oh hey, 15 years later and I’ve FINALLY done it!” That might sound ridiculous, but I’m already so torn about being so close to thirty. I don’t want to be torn about being thirty and fat.

Make sense?

Anyways, I wish I could blame ignorance and say things like “I don’t know what happened? I have been doing so good!” or “It must be that I’m bloated, or [fill in the blanks]”

But I know why.

Laziness. Over eating. Poor eating habits. Practically nothing as far as water intake goes. Not pre-planning meals. Sedentary life style.

Sure, I can blame it on being winter (still). Something about (still) having snow in April makes me want to eat carbs and junkie stuff all day every day.

But that’s kind of a cop out.

Winter or not, there is no reason for me not to be doing more. Doing what I know I need to do.

And a good part of it is making excuses for myself.

Silver lining, I’ve actually lost those 4.6 pounds in the last 10 days. I’m pretty set in thinking that is probably just water weight, but hey. At least it’s something? EDIT So, I’ve realized that the 4.6 pounds was most definitely lost since my last weigh in. The 4.6 (which certainly wasn’t 4.6, more like 3.2) pounds was within that last time I weighed myself at home, not for a blog post. So for the sake of clarity, and my sanity…I’m making that edit. I’d gained 4.6 pounds since my last official blog weigh-in… my 6am coffee brain was confused with all the numbers.

Anyways, moving on…

Got that motivation bug again, and I’m not going to naively sit here and insist that this time will be different. That I’m going to keep on keeping on until the weight is off. If I’ve learned anything from this SIX year journey (gag) it’s that making promises adds some unneeded pressure. Amirite?

But I know I’m slacking in some things, I always know that I’m slacking in some things. But I’ve been trying incredibly hard to get back on track and stop the yo-yo cycle. I’ve been really trying some new things, and we’ll see if they work!

And for sake of getting off the Yo-yo routine…

Weeks of consecutive weight loss = ONE ZERO