Running a 5k? Still?

Do you all remember back in December when I’d said something about running a 5k in September?

Well, here we are in April, and that is still the goal. Who’da thought, four months later and that’s still a thing? Considering, when I showed up training last month and our Superwoman Training Head Honcho Superwoman was still 100% gung-ho all abouts it (which of course, made me all gung=ho about it)? Yep, still happening. Do you see what I mean about The WonderWoman of Commitment???

Anyways, still hoping to do the Color Run!

Unfortunately the only ones in our state happened on Monday and it’ll come again in July. I keep obsessively checking the website to see if they’ve updated through to November (we’d heard that they generally have on in November), but they haven’t. #boo

Granted, November pushes our date well past the original September, but still. I’m still pretty optimistic that they’ll have on closer to our date, there is still a city in my state that hasn’t been listed as far as dates go, and I even went and signed up for a notification for when that time comes.

We’re in uncharted territory, people! I don’t believe I’ve actually ever signed up to receive updates. It’s not the same as signing up to actually run it, but still. Baby steps.

So, aside from that preparation… I’m getting ready to start the c25k program all over again.

It’s early, but it takes 9 weeks. And I have no clue when the day is going to be posted. Earlier I start the earlier I can finish. Silver Lining.

Biggest problem right now is the snow. In case you didn’t know, Michigan has no understanding of how seasons work. We have a good 4-8 inches in my area. Definitely not jogging/walking weather for someone who hates running, and also hates being cold. I’m really hoping all this snow is gone by May (how sad is it that us Michiganders can’t be sure if we’ll still have snow in MAY?!) so I can get a good head start in the whole business of running a 5k in general.

I figure if I get going on this devil’s errand as early as possible, I might be in good shape for when I ACTUALLY RUN A 5K.

We shall see!

Steps in the Right Direction

Like I said in last post, I’ve been making little steps in the right direction. Which includes making some better choices.

Those little changes have helped me lose some weight in the last week and a half. Granted, it’s probably all water weight. But I’m determined to keep making some changes.

Like actually choosing some healthy options, who knew that was an option??? Drinking more water. The little things. I even have a new set of measuring cups to keep an eye on portion control, which let me tell you… I forgot just how much a serving size of something was.

I haven’t gone all level 10 weight loss mode, but more like a solid level 4.

But the biggest change is that I’ve started using a FitBit (yeah, yeah, I’m a little late to the party)… and I’m really in-love with it! I might actually have to buy one, this one is borrowed… testing the waters.

The little thing that reminds me to get off my butt and walk. I’m a pretty sedentary person, remember? But, it’s a nice reminder that I’ve been doing paperwork too long and I need to move. It’s also fun to see how many steps I get throughout the day. Which, aren’t as much as I would like. But that’s kind of the point, right?

I’ve also added a water reminder to my phone, because apparently, I’ve become one of those people who have to be prompted to drink some water. This thing sends me a notification to remind me to actually drink some water. Which is sad because I used to drink tons of water without any issue, but here we are.

There were half a million to choose from, but seriously. That little guy is super cute.

So right now, my main focus have been to keep a better track of what I have been eating, making myself get up and move more (even if it is just walking around or climbing some stairs), and upping my water intake.

Baby steps again, that’s kind of the catch 22 of yo-yo weight loss. At some point you have o go back to basics, because jumping right back into where you left off doesn’t work. Easiest way to fail, that method hasn’t been working, have to do something different.

Kudos for progress?

Like a Yo Yo – Weigh in Monday?

Let’s just get right down into the nitty gritty. I’ve lost weight. Like a yo-yo. (Please sing that to the tune of Madonna’s Like A Virgin, I am.) Back and forth. Whatever. To top it off, it’s been a long time since my last post way back in the beginning of February. That’s rough.

Worse yet, it’s been even longer since my last weigh in.

My first weigh in of the New Year landed on the 3rd of January. We’re in April.

Can you guess what happened?

Yo-yo weight loss/gain.

Which is why I’m posting this on a Monday, not a Wednesday. Jump right in with both feet before I have two whole days to chicken out and fall back into not posting.

Now, this whole yo-yo thing sucks because there was a solid time frame there that I hadn’t done the whole yo-yo thing.

I get into these modes of motivation where nothing can stop me. And generally those pop up when I’ve stepped on the scale and noticed that I’ve gained a few pounds (try 10?). So I’d go through and fix everything, change everything, lose a ton of weight and be proud and happy. Then hit a wall and gain it back.

I’m sure you all know what I’m talking about. That little revolving door of weight loss.

So, here we go. A million weigh ins later.

Last weigh-in: 211.2
This weigh-in: 215.8
Gained: 4.6
Total lost from highest: 55.3

Gaining 4.6 pounds in 4 months might not seem like that big of deal. But the issue is that I kept gaining and losing. At one point I was ecstatic because I was sitting at 206. I was only 10 pounds over my pre-pregnancy weight. Then I stepped on the scale a few weeks later and saw I was at 218. And so on and so forth, and higher.

And that’s where I lost it.

Little bit will be turning 3 here in a few months. I’ve spent 3 years fighting/not fighting/fighting/not fighting the weight I gained. 3 years ago.

I got so close, and then blew it. Again

Awesome.

The other thing that hit me, April 6th put me at 6 months before my birthday. 6 months before I turn 29.

I’ve spent all of my 20s fighting my weight. Granted, I spent all of my teens worried about my weight. But I’d never thought in a million years that I would spent my ENTIRE twenties worried about my weight. I don’t want to be sitting at 35 like “Oh hey, 15 years later and I’ve FINALLY done it!” That might sound ridiculous, but I’m already so torn about being so close to thirty. I don’t want to be torn about being thirty and fat.

Make sense?

Anyways, I wish I could blame ignorance and say things like “I don’t know what happened? I have been doing so good!” or “It must be that I’m bloated, or [fill in the blanks]”

But I know why.

Laziness. Over eating. Poor eating habits. Practically nothing as far as water intake goes. Not pre-planning meals. Sedentary life style.

Sure, I can blame it on being winter (still). Something about (still) having snow in April makes me want to eat carbs and junkie stuff all day every day.

But that’s kind of a cop out.

Winter or not, there is no reason for me not to be doing more. Doing what I know I need to do.

And a good part of it is making excuses for myself.

Silver lining, I’ve actually lost those 4.6 pounds in the last 10 days. I’m pretty set in thinking that is probably just water weight, but hey. At least it’s something? EDIT So, I’ve realized that the 4.6 pounds was most definitely lost since my last weigh in. The 4.6 (which certainly wasn’t 4.6, more like 3.2) pounds was within that last time I weighed myself at home, not for a blog post. So for the sake of clarity, and my sanity…I’m making that edit. I’d gained 4.6 pounds since my last official blog weigh-in… my 6am coffee brain was confused with all the numbers.

Anyways, moving on…

Got that motivation bug again, and I’m not going to naively sit here and insist that this time will be different. That I’m going to keep on keeping on until the weight is off. If I’ve learned anything from this SIX year journey (gag) it’s that making promises adds some unneeded pressure. Amirite?

But I know I’m slacking in some things, I always know that I’m slacking in some things. But I’ve been trying incredibly hard to get back on track and stop the yo-yo cycle. I’ve been really trying some new things, and we’ll see if they work!

And for sake of getting off the Yo-yo routine…

Weeks of consecutive weight loss = ONE ZERO

Caffeine is here to stay

I feel like crap. I’m grouchy, irritable, and have a constant headache. Why? Because I’m starting to make real progress trying to decrease caffeine.

Remember back in August when I declared I was going to detox from caffeine?

Yeah, it sucks.

I tried and failed several times from August through October. At the smallest hint of a headache, I was sipping down more coffee trying to avoid THE headache. Granted, I’m generally always having a headache. Excedrin Tension is never too far away (I have a high stress job, ya’ll… no judgement). But caffeine headaches are a much bigger deal.

Well, within the last two weeks, I’ve started again. Making progress, but still it sucks. It’s recommended to cut back on coffee 1/4 every three days. And considering how much freaking coffee I drink. Both my coffee “mug” and my travel mug are 20 ounces. I’m only decreasing 5 ounces EVERY THREE DAYS. It’ll take me 5 months to be completely off caffeine. Five freaking months.

I highly doubt that I’ll completely stop drinking coffee. I’m hoping I can just get to the point where I don’t feel like I need coffee to make it through the day. I’ll still enjoy a nice steaming much of decaf gag or have a blended latte once in a while.


My glorious 20oz Harry Potter mug

Which, let me tell you. A blended latte (or frappachino for you Starbucks people out there) CANNOT be made with Decaf… because the coffee shop around here uses HOT freaking espresso. Which makes it soupy and gross. Imagine an iced latte but with a scoop of powder in it. ICK. The ice is literally melted before they blend. Not. Ok. You hear me, baristas? For the sake of blended decaf drinks everywhere… PLEASE HAVE SOME COLD DECAF ESPRESSO ON HAND LIKE YOU DO FULL CAFF <--- see what I mean? I'm grouchy. Though, I was a barista at that same coffee shop long ago, and I have a trick for that if you want it... pour your hot decaf in the blender, add your cold milk with A FEW ice cubes, let it sit for a minute while you add your syrups/powder so it can at least get room temp, THEN add your ice. It’ll help, I promise. Takes all of 45 seconds longer, and your decaf drinkers will thank you

Anyways. I’ve managed to cut down almost a full coffee mug in the last two weeks, and have only had a mild headache everyday. Is that a win?


See! I’ve even been tracking it!

For all of you caffeine-aholics out there hoping to decrease the amount you need to survive… I wish you well. I wish you luck. And for what it’s worth, you’re allowed to dream about coffee. You’re not allowed to imagine your friends as giant mugs of steaming goodness.

Now, if you’ll excuse me. I have to log in how much caffeine I’ve had, and take a nice dose of caffeine free headache medicine.

Enjoy!

Freaking Frustrating

This losing weight business is so freaking frustrating.

It’s one of the harder things to do in life.

And this is coming from someone who has carried a child…twice… for 9 months.
Someone who wrote a freaking novel
Someone who has MASTERED THE ART OF SUDUKO IN SCHEDULING FORM (ok, that last one is a stretch)

But for real.

The idea of losing weight for me has always been that it’s pretty easy. Realistically, the idea of it is.

Eat less.
Drink more water.
Move more.

Yay! Weight loss!

Eat Less
Yes, it’s easy to eat less. But for fucks sake, it’s fall. Which means PUMPKIN EVERYTHING. I’ll totally admit I’m one of those girls who turn into a pumpkin come September. Because ALL THINGS PUMPKIN. In the last month I have had more than my fair share of pumpkin lattes, pumpkin rolls, pumpkin pie, pumpkin cookies, and pumpkin cupcakes. And we’re barely one month in. Ohmylanta.

The job I have makes it all too easy to have “lunch meetings” with my supervisor and our team. But for cheese and rice, that means “Let’s get out of here, I’m hangry” is a term that’s said a lot. Or $5 on pizza for our weekly meetings? Or hitting up Wendy’s or A&W or Burger King? And of course… Chubby Nicole is all over that. Though, the last time I had actually just eaten the lunch I packed (spinach wrap with turkey, spinach, mushroom, and deliciousness) before she showed up growling “Fooooood, nowwwww.” So I just sat like a creeper while they ate.

Disclaimer part A: No, my boss didn’t actually sound like that (or did she???).
Disclaimer part B: Had she stopped by 10 minutes earlier, that poor little wrap would have been long since forgotten as I plowed through my Baconator. Just sayin

Drink More Water
I love water. Generally drinking more water isn’t a hard thing for me to do. Especially considering the fact that I have about four different water bottles I use for this. But if you remember one of my last posts I have a hugeslight issue with caffeine. As in coffee. As in I drink mostly coffee. Which, back when I wrote that post I was dealing with a pretty nasty headache due to a lack of coffee…so I decided I was going to swear off coffee. Want to know how that is coming along?

About like that. *She says as she fills her BRAND NEW Maruader’s Map 20oz glow-in-the-freaking-dark coffee mug to the brim with fresh coffee*

So, yes. I am drinking more water…but not less coffee. Which means I’m peeing all.the.time. But, hey. I’m at least drinking water right?

And last but not least…

Move More
How bout nah.
How am I supposed to exercise when I’m chasing two kids around, editing a novel, working 45-50 hours a week, and there is a VERY IMPORTANT SERIES I MUST CATCH UP ON NETFLIX?
A.k.a I’ve been using every excuse in the book to just not. Bad Nicole. Bad Nicole. I get it. Now, I’m still doing my bedtime yoga, and feeling pretty accomplished because my hips are not nearly as tight (after four freaking months). But other than that, my activity level is firmly set in the “sedentary” category.
Yep.

Yep.

So, anyways.

I can only imagine what my weigh-in is going to bring on Wednesday. Considering my last weight in was, ohhhh, seven weeks ago.

Can I convince myself that any weight gain is worth it? You know, because it’s PUMPKIN SPICE?????

No?

Ok then. I guess I should probably stop saying “weight loss is freaking frustrating” when in reality it’s “weight loss is freaking frustrating because I wanna eat everything, drink coffee, and do lots of sitting.”

Accurate.