Happy New Years, everyone! We made it!
So, I’m thinking of trying something new this year in lieu of a New Years Resolution.
I was introduced to the “word of the year” idea a couple years ago. It’s essentially picking a word to attempt to follow for the entire year.
The word can be what you hope to become. How you want to live the year. The big thing you want to change, or a word that describes how you’re going to do that.
I never actually did this, I always tossed around the idea of giving it a try… but I never really stuck to doing it. Which makes sense, because I’ve never actually stuck to my New Years Resolutions when I tried to make them. Now, of course, with my resolution for 2018, I’d managed to do a few small things in the whole be nice to myself resolution I had going on. But still, it wasn’t like I actually went so far as to say I crushed a goal.
For 2019, I knew I wanted to move towards something. I wanted to have some kind of goal.
And rather than listing out a resolution of something I want to accomplish in a year, I wanted something more abstract. Something that I could sustain and work towards over a course of a year.
So, a word for an entire year seemed like a good idea.
Picking one word to summarize an entire year is a daunting task. There are so many words to think of. Do I want to be more hopeful? Is being more consistent going to get me to where I want to be? What about “embrace” change? Or “grow” or “appreciate, mindful, calm, thrive?”
Of course, I would love to do all those things. But when reflecting on 2018 there was a common theme.
I was too busy, too stressed, too worried, too…well, everything.
And a lot of that came from spreading myself too thin. I was trying to be a good mom, a good boss, a good friend, a good employee. I was working two-three jobs, while trying to find time to write and maintain this blog. I was trying to do so many things all at once, and it just wasn’t really working.
Because I was lacking balance in almost every aspect of my life.
And just like that, it hit me.
Sometimes the word chooses you.
Sometimes you have to actually listen to what went wrong to find out what can make it right.
Balance is one the biggest obstacles in my life. How do I balance all of the hats I wear on a daily basis. I desperately need some balance in my life.
At first I was a little bit butt hurt that my word wasn’t going to be something like “happy” or “strong” or “growth” but when you actually thing about it, can I even hope for those things if things have no balance?
Ummm, that’s a big fat no.
So, that’s my word of the year. Balance. This year I’m going to try and move towards that. Balancing all the things in my life that I want to do and the things that I have to do. My family, work, health, weight… all of it… and we’ll see how it goes!