Well, the fateful weigh in day. Phew. I have been weighing myself weekly (granted, more than once a week) just to keep up to par on what I was weighing.
The last time I posted my weight was wayyyy back over a month ago.
So without further ado…
Last Weigh-In: 196.2 This Weigh-In: 194.3 Total lost: 1.9 lbs
So I’ve only lost 2 pounds in six weeks. Not that much, but on the flip side of the situation it hasn’t been an up and down kind of thing. There were several months that I must have lost a total of 20 pounds… but when that 20 pounds is bouncing between 180 and 200 repetitively, doesn’t exactly make for any kind of actual weight loss.
So even though I haven’t lost much at all, I’m proud of the fact that I haven’t been yo-yoing like I had been.
Perhaps that’s just me being overly optimistic, but I’ll take it.
I’ve been MIA a bit these last couple of days (obviously). I blame it on a ton of late nights driving and general desire for sleep.
So of course I missed my first weigh-in day of this new start, not exactly a good move on my part. So we’ll call this Belated Weigh-in Wednesday?
I have checked my weight a while ago, and I’ve pretty much stayed stagnant for a little while, but now that I’m posting again, it’s time for an official weigh-in. So here you go.
Dun Dun Dunnnnnn
Last Weigh-In (March 27, 2013): 183.5 This Weigh-In: 196.2 Total gained 12.7 lbs
Well, there you have it. 12 pounds. Considering that it’s been nearly a year and having only gained 12 pounds, I can’t say that I’m too upset about it. Sure, I’m fairly bummed that I gained weight. But it definitely could have been worse.
There was zero exercise as far as going out and actually exercising, but that was kind of the story originally. And my eating habits weren’t all that hot. So when I stepped on the scale I was honestly expecting something more along the lines of 205+.
But I have enjoyed eating like crap to be perfectly honest. Eating whatever I wanted with minimal guilt was nice. But now I’ve got to get back to the roots.
Counting calories (take that “calorie counting nay sayers”)
Exercising (for real this time)
Blogging (more regularly than two posts then vanishing – oops)
But I’m hoping this time will be a bit easier, or at least different. I still have my family’s support and Josh’s support (two words: Nike Conversation) which haven’t changed. But this time around I have a few friends who are also on this path to losing weight. We’re all going about it in different ways. I believe there is Weight Watchers, Atkins, and eating better in the general paths… but it’ll be nice to be able to talk to people I personally know who are going through the same things that I am.
Well, I watched a Jenna Marbles video called “Junk Food Confessions” and in between my giggling and “Oh my God, I totally do that!” I started thinking about what my inner fat girl forces me to do. Haha. For your entertainment I am going to post that video right here. Just for you, because I am so nice. Yeah.
I am definitely like that. We talked (ok, I talked…you all read) about my lack of self control the other day. And when my self control decides to wither away and die… I make all kinds of poor decisions. It’s not just “yeah, I guess I’ll eat my fifth cookie” it is wayyy more in depth than that.
No. My lack of self control makes me do some really ridiculous things.
At Subway… do I really need bacon on my Philly Cheesesteak Sandwhich? Nope… can’t really taste it… but I know it’s there. Will my stomach actually be able to hold that extra burger patty and large fries? Nope, but let’s upgrade anyways. Yup, potatoes make every meal better…. you know what makes potatoes better? Butter. Lots and lots of butter. Do my brownies really need chocolate chips in the batter? Nope. Add all the chocolate!
I get into this train of thought that… hey my self control already failed me, let’s just kill it and bury it and forget. Yeah.
I’m having some baked chicken for dinner… cool, a good decision for dinner. But you know what? That box of Velveeta Mac and Cheese looks absolutely divine. You know what would make that mac and cheese even better? Crumbled bacon (for texture…that’s the ONLY reason why…yeah right)…while we’re at it, let’s add more shredded cheese on top. Because my mac and cheese clearly isn’t cheesy enough.
Here is my favorite one. “I’m sooo full. My stomach is bursting. But it’s sooo good, I can’t stop!” I do that a lot with biscuits and gravy… also with pancakes. Well… also with cake.
I’m sighing heavily right now, just in case you are curious. I know it’s ridiculous, but I am powerless to stop it.
I’m not being dramatic. I am seriously powerless to stop it. It’s almost as though my mind is screaming at me to stop, but suddenly my brain isn’t connected to the rest of my body. My hands continue to shovel food in my mouth, my hands still drop half a pound of shredded cheese into my chili.
Yeah. That is why I have such a hard time losing weight. Haha.
I’m in the process of getting my self control under wraps. Way easier said than done. I’ve tried testing myself with small things. Kind of forcing myself to stop. I’ve had to mutter “Be good. Don’t over do it. You don’t need that much. You don’t need this again.” under my breath. It’s a hard thing to fix.
But I know that if I don’t fix it, I’m not doing myself any favors. Even if one day I find myself stepping on the scale and it says 145… I can easily visualize myself gaining weight back. Even if it isn’t a lot. Or I will spend the rest of my life jumping from 145 to 165 and back again.
It’s not that far off of a thought. I’ve been doing that for the last year or so. I’ve been bouncing between 185 and 200 constantly. And I blame my self control. If I had self control I would be consistently losing weight. I would be exercising regularly. I would be eating right consistently. Not yo-yoing. Fact of my life…
I honestly considered taking a pause from my weight loss path to focus on self control, but I’m worried if I stop that I won’t continue. The excuses will rear their ugly heads. Not only that but I need to develop my self control while I’m losing weight. (Well, attempting). Otherwise I’m not really teaching myself anything.
So…it’s going to be an interesting path. We’ll see what happens. Finger’s crossed I can get through this.
Really quick, I’ve got to do my weigh in day.
Last Weigh-In: 183.7 This Weigh-In: 183.5 Total Lost: .2 lbs
Am I going to count that? Probably not. But hey, at least it’s not a gain.
Lovely. I’m just kind of blah, thankfully I’m not full on ill. Kind of stuffy…wee bit of a sore throat. When it finally hits completely it’s going to be a doozy.
Well, my whole “I’m feeling blah about this week” feeling was spot on. I didn’t do awesome, and I didn’t do crappy either.
Last Weigh In: 185.5 lbs This Weigh In: 185.4 lbs Total Lost: .1 pounds
Haha, I don’t even consider that a loss. I’m just kind of like “eh, whatever.”
I’ve been hoovering around 185 for quite a while. But I’m kind of halfhearted about it all. Which is strange. I’ve been working out at least 3 times a week (go me) and I have been eating ok…not exceptionally well, just ok. I’m not sure if I need some kind of motivation thing or what… but I’m just kind of stuck, I suppose.
I think it’s my body being a d-bag. I have been eating between 1400-1600 calories a day and I’ve been burning about 300-350 when I work out…so thinking with common sense, I should have lost at least something… but noooo, of course not.
My body is on strike. It’s giving me a big “screw you!” Apparently it just doesn’t want to lose weight right now. In other, more appropriate terms…Plateau.
Haha, so much for optimism.
I am thinking I need to up the workouts. I’m not willing to lower the calories I’m eating… I was told 1400-1500 calories…and I don’t want to go beneath that. So the only thing I can do at this point is exercise more.
Perhaps, just changing up my workout will help.
Hell, I don’t know. This is the part of losing weight that frustrates me… not knowing what’s going on. There are a million different variables that could have happened.
So, I’m just going to sit here in my confusion and (hopefully) not over think it.
Have you ever had that moment where you seem stuck at a certain number? What did you do to get out of it?
Apparently this is the year for movies. I swear if I could get away with it I might live at the movie theater this year…haha. Although, I don’t think all that theater buttery popcorn is the best idea.
Let’s see, here’s my list.
Beautiful Creatures, Escape From Planet Earth, Jack the Giant Slayer, The Croods, G.I. Joe: Retaliation, Movie 43, Iron Man 3, Fast and Furious 6, Hangover 3, Grown Ups 2, Percy Jackson Sea of Monsters, Thor: The Dark Worlds, The Hunger Games: Catching Fire, Hansel and Gretel: Witch Hunters, Warm Bodies, Identity Theft. Oz: The Great and Powerful, 21 and Over, A Good Day to Die Hard, Parker
Phew. 19 movies. Usually there is only a handful that I want to watch… but oh man 2013 is going to be filled with movies.
I love movies. Absolutely love them. I especially love them in the theater. Although, I am not fond of 3-D. Sometimes I feel like I am the only person on earth who doesn’t like 3-D. Haha. But I don’t know what it is all about, but I adore going to the movies. I think being a movie critic would be the perfect job for me. Sitting around and watching movies…scoring them (yes, I do that)… and getting paid to do it. That would be awesome.
But I wish that there were some healthy choices for movie theaters. But, unfortunately people don’t go to the movies to eat veggies with hummus. It’s all about the super buttery popcorn and overly priced boxed candy.
But aside from all the movies that are coming out…today is my weigh in day.
Last Weigh in: 185 lbs This Weigh in: 185.3 lbs Total Gained: .3 lbs
Well, that was unexpected. I honestly believed that my “not-a-cheat-day” day was going to have me pushing out a couple pounds, haha. But just .3, ah well. Like I said yesterday, I going to get going again (not that I actually stopped…haha). But it’s been 4 weeks since I have lost anything.
It’s kind of bittersweet. I want to lose weight (dur, that’s what this blog is all about) but at the same time I’m thrilled that if I wasn’t going to lose weight I managed to not gain anything either. Gives me hope for when I start maintaining. But I don’t want to maintain now…so it still kind of sucks.
Ah well. Kind of wasted a month. Haha. I know that much. But I need to start losing again.
But again, I can’t be too upset about it. But hey, C’est La Vie. Well, at least Such is my life. Haha.