Getting close (Weigh in Day!)

Ahhh, weigh-in day. Ok, ok, a day late. But since it was on purpose, I can be forgiven. Just in case you missed it, I did a feature post yesterday. My second for the “motivational people” archives…but my first for actual weight loss bloggers! Gretchen from Honey, I shrunk the Gretchen. I had a great time writing it, and she was so helpful and nice about answering the Q&As I sent and also sending me pictures! So I decided on waiting to weigh myself until today.

Took some restraint, because if it were up to me, I would weigh myself constantly…but I waited.

Last week: 186.4
This week: 186.4
No lost or gained

I’m just kind of like, eh. To be expected. It’s that time of the month (sorry boys!!!!!) and I’m definitely bloating. So I’m hoping that is good news. Bloating and weighing the same as I weighed last week. Keep your fingers crossed, I’m hoping for epic things next week.

Although I have noticed that this ALWAYS happens to me. I get so close to one of my goals (this one being 184) and I totally expect to reach that goal…and Aunt Flo always shows up and ruins it for me. It happened right before I hit 199… go figure. But next week I am determined to see that magical 184!!! I’ll get my chip!!! AND I’ll be officially 80 pounds down from my highest weight! I can’t wait.

But I was thinking about how close I am to that 184, and realized that I honestly can’t remember the last time I weighed 184. It’s a shocker. I guess that’s kind of unfair because any number under 200 is going to be a number that I don’t remember being at…but it’s strange to actually sit there and think about it.

The even more shocking thing is that I’m actually only about 20 pounds away from that 165 number. Insanity. That’s my “first” goal weight. It’s the weight that I’m going to stop at for a little while and see how I feel about it. If I feel I need to continue then I will, if I feel like I should stop…then I will. But I wanted to sit at 165 for a while and see how I feel about that weight. I’m not sure how long “a while” is. But we’ll see.

Technically, at 165 I’ll still be considered “overweight” not by much…but still a little…and honestly not enough to worry about. Hey I’d be healthier than weighing 264, like I was.

The thing that freaks me out the most…I’m only 20 pounds away from losing 100 pounds. That’s insane to me. Losing 100 pounds. I don’t know if I am excited to be able to say that. “Hey, I lost 100 pounds” it’s either a testament to my hard work, or an admission that I was once 100 pounds heavier. I’m not sure if I should care or not. I’m sure I’ll figure it out.

On happy happy news…my mom said that I could have her elliptical. She hates it. Doesn’t enjoy it at all, so she said she doesn’t want to keep doing something she hates…good train of thought, Mom. 🙂

So yeah, I’m super happy about that. Probably going to head over there and pick it up at some point today. Yep. Then I’ll get all on that elliptical-ness

I’m also planning on going photo crazy. I haven’t been having pictures on here for a little while, I realized that I’m no good at taking pictures to begin with. But I wanted more pictures on my actual page, and my blog posts could be much better with pictures. So I’ve gotta get on that!!!

I need activity (Weigh in Day)

So before I get into my long exercise post… it’s weigh in day. And you know what that means. Either I’m going to be happy or slightly dissapointed….which will it be today. (Does anyone else feel that you are play Russian Roulette with the scale?).

Last week: 186.0
This week: 186.4
Up .4 pounds

Eh, not too bad. I’m not complaining at all. I’m kind of indifferent about it. So I gained a half a pound. I’m really not too worried about half a pound, that could be anything. So I’m not going to fret about it. I’m happy. I won’t worry unless that .4 pounds keeps getting higher.

So now that that’s over, back to your regularly scheduled program….

Yeah, I’m complaining. I need to do something active. The sun is out, it’s a beautiful day (and it’s only 8ish), I know that it’s going to be a great day to do something.

I just checked. The 5k that I want to do is in about 5.5 weeks. Holy crap. And the worst thing…I haven’t really been training at all. Not like I should. Isn’t that lame? I’ve just has so much on my plate, that I really haven’t thought about it. So at this point, the 5k is currently up in the air. I know I want to do the 5k, but I’m not going to put myself through something that I haven’t trained for. I would be absolutely miserable, and that would most definitely be the end of my “jogging career.” Now there are certainly smaller scale races coming up, but I WANT to race in this one. It’s the Cherry Festival. I mean, honestly. Come on!

So really. I’m pretty sure that I’m going to find a way to force myself to get through with this training. Even if that means getting new music, a new route, hitting the riverwalk…something to make myself get out there and do this. Technically I’m on week 4-day one (yeah, I told you I was falling behind) so I only have about 5 weeks left of my training…so if I jump right back into this, I should be ok. Even if I repeat my week 3-day 3 jog. You know? I’m determined. I hate setting a specific goal (such as a dated one) and not delivering. It’s horrible for me. And then to top it off that I have officially told everyone (well, at least in my mind)… it’s not really an option not to do this.

I do highly doubt I’ll be able to get the T-shirts though. Poo. I was really excited for that, but I don’t think it’s gonna happen. We’ll see.

Other than the race, I’m feeling incredibly unsettled. I might even say that I’m feeling unsatisfied. And this is surely going to shock you…. I miss exercising.

Yeah, I said it. The girl who is anti-exercise. The girl who thinks “exercise” is synonymous with “torture”. The girl who cringes at the idea of getting sweaty…just said it. I miss exercising. I miss the whole shebang. Well, except for the sweaty part.

I feel like I haven’t done enough of it. No. I know I haven’t done enough of it. The only excuse I have is time restraints. I don’t have much time in the day to actually work out. Which is most definitely an excuse, I know that it is an excuse. But it’s what I keep telling myself. I’ve got to get out of that mind set. I’m not completely sure on how, but it has to be done.

I’m considering becoming one of those morning exercising people. I’m lucky. It’s very seldom do I have to wake up prior 8:00Am. I don’t have to be to work until 9:30…and Landon likes to sleep until 8:30-9:00. For instance, it’s quarter to nine right this minute and both boys are still asleep. So I’m considering setting my alarm for 7:00am. Waking up, getting dressed, and going out for some exercising. Even if it’s just a walk, or a jog, or whatever…something. I may even steal my mom’s elliptical. That gives me an hour to workout and shower before I even have to consider anyone waking up.

I’ve heard that AM exercises are great. So many people like them, because it gives your body a jolt and lasts all day. I don’t know if that’s true or not, but I’m willing to give it a try. And…bonus… there is no excuse for not having enough time. So the plan for tomorrow is to wake up at 7. Today is not really an option, obviously, but I’m still going to get some kind of activity in.

Of you who are morning exercisers, why do you chose the morning??? What reason do you prefer mornings. And those who exercise later in the day…tell me why. I’m curious to know if exercising in different parts of the day is better.

Busy Busy! (Late weigh in day)

First new post with my own domain!!!!

It’s kind of exciting… I’ve been super busy with attempting to get everything transferred over. It’s been insane. I’ve also been attempting to make a new layout to go with the new domain. Still a work in progress!

I’ve got all the important stuff in here, all I’m missing is pictures. Pictures. Pictures. That always seems to be the issue with me. But I’m flipping through all my pictures to attempt to put some around.

I feel like there should be a little cadence playing. Like a congratulatory one. But I honestly think that I’m the only person who is that excited about this. How geeky am I?

It’s been a long long long while since I have posted, what almost a week? For that, I’m sorry. I like to try and post everyday. That hasn’t been the case (obviously). But I’ll do better.

I’ve been so busy. I’ve had work, preparing for my summer class (I leave on the 2nd), learning this WordPress stuff..among a million other things, it’s kind of been insane.

But I know I haven’t been eating well. I already know that. We’ve had errands this whole week which has (more than once) landed us in a fast food joint in a hurry. I could blame it simply on that, but I’ve been going on and on about how you should make “good choices” and I know I haven’t. So I’m treating this week as a cheat week.

A cheat week that has been in my favor!

I had honestly thought that I was going to gain some weight. I wouldn’t have been surprised if I did, but I didn’t.

Last week: 186.8
This week: 186.0
Down .8 pounds

Hey still a loss! A whole lot better than what I thought I was going to manage. Yay! It’s almost a pound. I’m not going to complain about that little .2 of a pound that didn’t go away. I’m actually pretty happy with that.

But I’ve been preparing for when I leave on the second. I can already tell you that I highly doubt that I am going to get a post in until later that night. I’m leaving my house at 6:30 am in order to make it to class by 8:30, and I’ll be there ALL DAY LONG.

But I’m starting to get my meals planned out while I’m there. Avoiding restaurants like the plague. Drinking a ton of water. But I really can’t wait.
I think this week will be good for me, as far as weight loss goes. I’m going to be in a class room for a good portion of the day as well as at the lake…so it won’t really be like I’ll have time to snack too much. I am preparing to bring a small lunchbox full of some munchies (healthy ones, like carrot sticks or something)

Other than all that, there hasn’t really been much on the weight loss frontier for me.

Tell me, anyone have some unexpected weight loss???

Super-Marvelous-Awesome (Weigh-in day)

So today was just an awesome weigh in. Makes me feel AWESOME!

Last week: 190.2
This week: 186.8
Down 3.4 pounds

I had been hoping for some large weight loss, so I’m glad that it was large. I really was. Especially since last week’s weigh-in I’m pretty positive that I was bloating since my TTotM had hit (sorry all you boys reading this). At least, I’m assuming that I was bloated,haha.

On top of that, I’ve been burning massive amounts of calories while at work. I’ve been pretty good this past week. So overall, I’m pretty happy with myself.

And this time around, after losing an AWESOME amount of weight, I’m not going to get cocky (or whatever the heck happened two weeks ago)…and I’m just going to keep going.

Hopefully by next week I’ll be able to get my -80 chip!!!!!

For those of you who don’t know about my chips, I got the idea from that movie Arthur (you know, the one with Russell Brand). SPOILER ALERT there is one part in it where he is attending AA meetings and he was playing with this little chip. SPOILER OVER You hear about people going to AA meetings and they get chips for going a certain amount of time being sober.

So oddly enough it’s kind of symbolic, and I couldn’t get it out of my mind so I had to steal the idea.

It made perfect sense to me at the time. They get chips for accomplishing goals defeating their own demons. And for me it’s the same kind of sense.Getting chips for losing my demons (pounds)

Clever, huh? If you don’t think it’s too clever, don’t tell me. Just let me think that I had this amazingly brilliant clever idea. Haha.

But my chips are pretty much on a -10 scale. So every 10 pounds I lose I get a chip. I also have “checkpoint chips”…. So when I’ve hit my halfway point (already have it)… when I’ve hit that 3/4 mark… when I hit -100 pounds.That kind of thing.

And then, since the last 10 pounds are always the hardest, the last few chips I’ll get are -5 until I get my “I DID IT” chip.

Get it?

I hope I didn’t confuse you too much.

But I’m super excited about it, because in 2.8 pounds I will get my -80chip!!!!!

It’s lame to be excited about it, but I really am.

It is the one main motivational thing that I have that I am actually really excited for.

I’m thinking tonight is going to be another boxing/sparring night with Josh. It’ll be fun!!!! And this time I won’t bop myself in the face.

Although tonight is the season finale of Revenge.

I’m super sad about it, it’s been season finales all week. Supernatural ended, Glee ended, Once upon a Time ended…… Psych ended a while ago…

But the good news is that White Collar and Pretty Little Liars is coming back on the air soon.

So I’m going to have to do some couch exercising while I’m sitting around watching it all. Haha.

If you can’t tell, Josh and I are definitely TV buffs. We have a list of about 8 shows that we watch ALL THE TIME. We have to keep up on them.

So yeah, we’re pretty lame… but it’s our thing.

The ONLY thing that is missing is having a Chinese food night along with one of our shows. We’ll incorporate that slowly…. Josh is a “Chinese food once a month (if you’re lucky)” kind of guy.

I’m a “Gimme gimme gimme” kinda gal…and don’t get me started on Sushi (I know that isn’t Chinese…but still delish). But we don’t have a Sushi shop around here.

Poop. So tonight I’m going have a nice night of Revenge and yummy (not chinese) food.

Got my days mixed up (Weigh in Day)

I can’t believe I missed yesterdays post…sorry! I had my days messed up.

It has not been a good week. I’m not going to make excuses this time around.

I got cocky. Very cocky. After the “scary” 191 weigh in last week, I weighed myself the next day because I didn’t think it was possible for a 4 pound weight gain…which technically it shouldn’t have been seeing as how I followed my plan (mostly). So when I weighed myself the next day I was 189. Made me happy….and I got cocky.

I can literally feel myself slipping. Badly. I’ve been giving myself excuses for the last couple of months. For the first weigh in for January I weighed 199. And as of today…

Last week: 191.4

This week: 192.6

+1.2

I gained a pound in this past week. Well, if you want to be technical I’ve gained 2.7 pounds if you count the 189.9 that I was last Thursday.

So really in the last 4 months I have lost only 6.4 pounds.

It’s still a loss, I know that, but with all the lose and then gain and then lose again…. it’s tedious.

There are just some days that I’m almost powerless to stop myself. I get into mini arguments with myself….

“Well, might as well eat whatever the hell you want, you already screwed up with breakfast.”

“Eh, you can just restart tomorrow.”

It sucks, really.

I know this is my fault, I really do. I haven’t been exercising the way I should be. I definitely haven’t been eating the way I am supposed to.

I feel like every single time that I would start a “diet” and then just give up. I know if something doesn’t change, I’m going to find myself on the fast route to 200 (or maybe even 264) if I’m not careful.

I’m sick of the “yo-yo” weigh ins.

And it takes this moment of sitting down with myself and focusing on what actually matters.

I think my two biggest problems would have to be that I’m not really counting like I should be….It’s something that I’m STILL learning… there are some things that I know right off the bat. But not enough to eat consciously without using the caloriecount.about.com crutch.

This is that stopping moment…again…. but I’m hoping this will be the last time.

It’s so discouraging. I’ve been doing this since I was 19. For the last 3 years I’ve been losing weight (and admittedly gaining, and having plateaus)

At this point, if I had been losing weight regularly I should have lost close to 30 pounds since January. And that’s only going with 1.5 pounds a week. And I’ve only lost 6.

Ugh, yucky.

So, I am going to lose at least 1.5 pounds this week. It’s going to be ok. I’m determined. I’ve got to keep this consistent.

So after that long “woe is me” post, I’m just going to get off of here, suit up and get ready for my jog (which I also haven’t done in a L-O-N-G time. Oops). I’m going to eat a great lunch, and get back on track!

Again.

But hey, everyone has a hard time losing weight. Anyone who lost weight super easily without any problems are either the god of weight loss, or not telling the whole story.

So, since you are all reading my “story” I’m going to make myself accountable (again) and get down to business!!!!

So to keep myself accountable, I’m going to list out the exercising that I’m going to for the following day.

So today, I’m going to do my c25k week three. And I’m going to actually bust out the sparring gloves with Josh and get on with it.

Tomorrow, I’m going to go to work (where I burn a ton of cals) and later that night I’m going to do some jump roping.

Yup. That’s what I’m going to do!

Wish me luck!