I can’t believe I missed yesterdays post…sorry! I had my days messed up.
It has not been a good week. I’m not going to make excuses this time around.
I got cocky. Very cocky. After the “scary” 191 weigh in last week, I weighed myself the next day because I didn’t think it was possible for a 4 pound weight gain…which technically it shouldn’t have been seeing as how I followed my plan (mostly). So when I weighed myself the next day I was 189. Made me happy….and I got cocky.
I can literally feel myself slipping. Badly. I’ve been giving myself excuses for the last couple of months. For the first weigh in for January I weighed 199. And as of today…
Last week: 191.4
This week: 192.6
I gained a pound in this past week. Well, if you want to be technical I’ve gained 2.7 pounds if you count the 189.9 that I was last Thursday.
So really in the last 4 months I have lost only 6.4 pounds.
It’s still a loss, I know that, but with all the lose and then gain and then lose again…. it’s tedious.
There are just some days that I’m almost powerless to stop myself. I get into mini arguments with myself….
“Well, might as well eat whatever the hell you want, you already screwed up with breakfast.”
“Eh, you can just restart tomorrow.”
It sucks, really.
I know this is my fault, I really do. I haven’t been exercising the way I should be. I definitely haven’t been eating the way I am supposed to.
I feel like every single time that I would start a “diet” and then just give up. I know if something doesn’t change, I’m going to find myself on the fast route to 200 (or maybe even 264) if I’m not careful.
I’m sick of the “yo-yo” weigh ins.
And it takes this moment of sitting down with myself and focusing on what actually matters.
I think my two biggest problems would have to be that I’m not really counting like I should be….It’s something that I’m STILL learning… there are some things that I know right off the bat. But not enough to eat consciously without using the caloriecount.about.com crutch.
This is that stopping moment…again…. but I’m hoping this will be the last time.
It’s so discouraging. I’ve been doing this since I was 19. For the last 3 years I’ve been losing weight (and admittedly gaining, and having plateaus)
At this point, if I had been losing weight regularly I should have lost close to 30 pounds since January. And that’s only going with 1.5 pounds a week. And I’ve only lost 6.
So, I am going to lose at least 1.5 pounds this week. It’s going to be ok. I’m determined. I’ve got to keep this consistent.
So after that long “woe is me” post, I’m just going to get off of here, suit up and get ready for my jog (which I also haven’t done in a L-O-N-G time. Oops). I’m going to eat a great lunch, and get back on track!
But hey, everyone has a hard time losing weight. Anyone who lost weight super easily without any problems are either the god of weight loss, or not telling the whole story.
So, since you are all reading my “story” I’m going to make myself accountable (again) and get down to business!!!!
So to keep myself accountable, I’m going to list out the exercising that I’m going to for the following day.
So today, I’m going to do my c25k week three. And I’m going to actually bust out the sparring gloves with Josh and get on with it.
Tomorrow, I’m going to go to work (where I burn a ton of cals) and later that night I’m going to do some jump roping.
Yup. That’s what I’m going to do!
Wish me luck!