Mindless Eating – Weigh in Wednesday

Getting back on track for the last few weeks of mindless eating, wild abandon for anything that was made out of ice cream or potatoes…was interesting to say the least.

I did a wee bit better with the not snacking because I’m bored/stressed/thirsty. I pulled a trick from my old playbook.

Drink some water, change up my tasks, take a second to stop…. am I still wanting something to eat? No? Well, whouda thought?

That’s the biggest problem with me and food.

I don’t really know how to describe it except that sometimes I mistake those little things as being hungry?

I know I don’t have the best relationship with food. Especially junk food. I’m a comfort eater. If I’m bored, I’ll go to the fridge. If I’m stressed, I want high carb kinda foods.

And we can all agree that I am stuck between some weird limbo of “always stressed or always bored.” There isn’t a middle ground for me.

So this last 10-ish days, I’ve really tried getting back on track with that.

Of course this wasn’t 100%. There is no way it could be 100%, I’m just not built like that. I’d love to just wake up one morning and be like “oh hey, this is easy!” But it’s not. So I chip away at it. And yeah, there were still some mindless moments of eating. I definitely didn’t hit any water goals. And my intake was all over the place.

But mentally, it helped. That focus I’d lost for those several weeks did have their shining moments where it was almost like my body remembered and was like “hold the ropes, lady, something’s off” and other moments where it was just “yeah, you have yogurt in the fridge, but you know what you really want? Cornbread.”

But it definitely helped.

Last weigh in: 200.8
This weigh in: 200.2
Total lost: .6
Total lost from highest: 64.6

Yeah, yeah… It’s not even a pound. But it’s half a pound. And, it’s moving forward, which I’m not complaining about one little bit.

I messed up…and moved on

Almost seven weeks later. I’d had the intention of keeping up some kind of consistency for writing, but go figure…didn’t go as far as I’d like. I would love to say that the last 7 weeks I’ve been able to solidly lose a pound a week, or hell, even say that I’ve lost 10 freaking pounds. Yeahhhh, I’m betting by reading that you’ve already guessed that wasn’t the case?

You guessed right.

Last weigh in 196.4
This weigh in: 200.8
Total gained: 3.6
Total lost from highest: 64

Listen, though… I went a little overboard for a while there.

Which included a little escapade that started with me ripping my pants, and ended with me saying “screw it” and getting a DOUBLE scoop ice cream AND cheese curds.


Seriously, why?

Now, there’s nothing really “bad” about the ice cream OR the cheese curds. I’d made some pretty good choices the entire week before then. I’d been nailing my water intake. I’d been being as active as my broken ass was letting me. It had been a really awesome week!

It was just not letting that be that moment that always ends up happening. 99% of the time I gain some weight. And this time was no different.

Except for one itty bitty detail.

I’d only gained three and a half pounds in 7 weeks. There was definitely some over eating, definitely some poor choices in the food department, many many lazy days… but I had my moment of “blegh” and I moved on.

That’s the point off all of this, right?

Learning from my mistakes? That’s all any of us can do.

Because, let’s face it… if losing weight was as easy as flipping a light switch and never having any small setbacks or going off course… I would have already gotten to where I’m heading. Right?

That’s all I can really say about it. Shining with optimism and being positive. I messed up, corrected it, and moved on. So I’m back up 3ish pounds, and I’ll survive it. This won’t be like moments I’d had on multiple occasions. I’m not going to beat myself up over three little pounds. I’m gonna pick up and move on.

That’s all I can do, right?

Well, that and keep chuckling that I legitimately ripped my pants.

First Weigh-in of the New Year

So here we are at the start of another year. Whew.

Just like reflecting back on how the New Year was to me (or rather, how I was to me this last year) I had to reflect how things went in the weight loss department…because, you know, weight loss blog and all.

First weigh in 2018: 211.2
Last weigh in 2018: 198.2
Total Lost: 13 pounds

So, this is one of those bittersweet moments, because on the plus side I ended the year weighing less that I started. On the “eh” side, I’d lost barely a pound a month (on average).

But this year, I’m determined to make more of an impact with this weight loss. I’m optimistic that the whole mindset I have for balance for this year, will help me make that progress.

This being a New Year most certainly isn’t going to make me into some exercise and nutrition “run forth and conquer” kind of person. I know, like everything else, motivation can fade as time goes by. I’ve just got to be persistent and more dedicated.

So, here we are, a New Year/New Start, the first weigh in of the new year!

Last weigh-in: 198.2
This weigh-in: 197.5
Total Lost: .7
Total lost from highest 66.5

Starting this year off strong! That’s the best thing about a New Year…the motivation it has! Bring it on mentality! But we’ll see how sustainable this is.

In this year, as an homage to my word of the year, I should be more mindful. Balance the food, water, movement…all that fun stuff.

A lot of yo-yoing went on last year. There was a point where I’d gained 8 pounds, lost that…gain 3-4…lose 7… it was a mess. I have no unrealistic thoughts that this year I’m not going to see some of that ping-pong weight loss. But I’m hoping I can be a touch more consistent when it comes to my physical health.

So, we’ll see what 2019 brings for my weight loss and health!

Cheers!

CRUSHED THOSE GOALS

So, something obvious happened that for some reason I haven’t screamed from the rooftops, mainly because I felt like I had more important things to discuss (like bad habits and how crazy things had gotten. But now that all of that is out of the way…because this girl right here….today on December 14th….can officially say I HAVE CRUSHED THOSE GOALS.

I MADE IT TO ONEDERLAND!

That is HUGE for me! I’d been sitting at 198 pounds before I got pregnant with little lady.

Which, you know what else that means?

I’M AT MY PRE-PREGNANCY WEIGHT!

So I’m doubly happy!

Hold on… you know what else that means?

I HAVE OFFICIALLY LOST THE 50 POUNDS I GAINED BACK FROM PREGNANCY!

Triple happy!

So this is the second week in a row that I’ve tacked all THREE of those little things off of my list of “things I gotta do” and I’m over the moon. I’m trying not to think about the fact that it took me four years to do this. I’m really trying to not think about all the backsliding I’ve done in the last four years. And I’m definitely trying to not think of the fact that losing 50 pounds in four years is less than 10 pounds a year

Because, you know what? Who freaking cares how long it took me? I did it. I lost 50 pounds. I clawed my way back to ONEderland. I’m back at my pre-pregnancy weight. I’m only 17 itty bitty pounds away from my LOWEST WEIGHT EVER.

I’m allowed to be excited. I’m allowed to be thrilled. Because that is freaking fantastic. And I’m not going to let that little negative voice in my head (I think I’ll call her Nancy) make me feel anything less that PROUD! Because I not only hit ONE goal….I’ve hit three goals! Granted, that’s pretty easy to do when three mile markers for me are all essentially the same weight. But, I’m allowed…because it’s significant!

So, I’m gonna throw myself a little imaginary party with confetti, drum rolls, and rocking 90s music, and I’m gonna do a horrible little disco-esque dance about it too!

BECAUSE I DID ALL OF THAT!

Better Choices – Weigh in Wednesday

Listen up. This last week has been complete and utter shit show a challenge, and I’m working towards making some better choices. (LOOK AT THAT BETTER POSITIVE SPEECH RIGHT THERE!) But for real, didn’t make the best choices… but I have to say, I did pretty darned good at moving on and not obsessing about it. Granted, I’m a whopping two days out of that epiphany so the motivation is still strong… but still… I’m gonna take it.

All-in-all I definitely could have made some better choices. But the silver lining, I still make some pretty awesome choices in this past week.

Biggest bummer moment was that I did a ton of walking several days in a row, but I’d forgotten to charge my FitBit… dundundunnnnnnnn… Leave it to me to ignore the 99 million notifications that my battery was low. Oh well.

While it might have seemed like quite the shit show, I have to say it wasn’t the worst it could have gone.

So my last weigh in was the result of trying to fix some broken things I’d done to myself over the last several months. I’d gained back some weight I hadn’t lost in the best way, and then re-lost some weight. Phew. It was like the biggest drama fueled yo-yo moment of weight loss.

Of course, I’m not expecting things to magically get better over night. But I did have several opportunities that I could have completely messed up, and continued to mess up. Miraculously, I didn’t. Not sure where that came from (read: temporary motivation?).

So this week, I’m really practicing the whole moving on from “poor” decisions. I’m that kind of person that when I “mess up” I just overhaul and pretty much give up. It’s a “well, Monday is already screwed, might as well throw my hands up” kind of situation I’ve got going on.

But I didn’t. I ended my days strongly, even if they didn’t start out that way. Sure, there were days that I went way over my calorie intake, but I didn’t blow dinner…because I MADE BETTER CHOICES (did ya guess that??). Which all goes along the lines of that whole #progressnotperfection that I’m really falling in love with.

So anyways,

Last weigh-in: 198.8
This weigh-in: 198.2
Lost: .6
Total lost from highest: 65.8

So, .6 pound loss. Silver lining (again, there’s that phrase again) that’s over a half a pound down! Not what I was secretly hoping for, but I still made steps in the right direction. Might not have been on the scale… but there were definitely some non-scale victories in there!

I’ll take it!