2019 goals – 5k – again

Can you all believe it’s already closing in on the end of January? We’re three weeks into the new year already. If things keep progressing like they have been, it’ll be just like last year. I’ll be posting in March, hardly believing that “it’s been three months already.”

So before time completely gets away from me, I have a whole list of things that I want to try and accomplish this year! I’m sure a lot of those won’t stick, but it’s the positive mindset that I’ve been looking at.

A lot of those came along while I was thinking of my Non-Scale Victories, and a good majority of them were from my goals page. When I wrote those, I’d honestly thought that I would be able to get through them in 2018. Needless to say I didn’t.

I hadn’t put much thought into them shortly after I’d written that (I know, horrible of me) but with everything that had been going on those goals were the last thing on my mind.

Now, with my whole “balance” theme of the year, I really want to try and get through some of those goals!

Do I think I’ll be able to do a handstand, or the salmon ladder, or Mudderella? Hardly, I have the upper body strength of a guppy. But there are somethings on there that I should be able to accomplish. And the only thing that was holding me back was a weird combination of time restraints, procrastination, and/or pure laziness.

For instance…wasn’t I supposed to do a 5k in September? Obviously that didn’t happened. Yeah, I signed up for the reminders for a certain race. But honestly, I didn’t even start to begin the C25K program (because, hello, there is no way in hell I’m going to be able to run a 5k without anything less than that). I couldn’t even tell you exactly what it was. I had all the excuses… I haven’t started the c25k because I didn’t know when the race was going to be. I can’t sign up for a race because I need at least 3 months to prepare…and there aren’t any in Michigan. I’m too busy, I’m always working.

Yada, yada, yada. The excuses were a mile long.

Dude, I’m great at excuses.

But I’m hoping that I’m able to get off the excuse track and actually start doing something.

So for this year…

I will do a 5k

That has been a goal of mine since 2012… SEVEN YEARS AGO… I’d actually even started the c25k program April of that year. I’d gotten about 3 weeks into, I believe? I was all ready to sign up, I’d even designed shirts. I didn’t go through with it, and to be honest, at this point… I don’t even know what the reason excuse was.

But I’ve been putting it off for seven years. Part of it is that I’m honestly scared to do it. I’m not a runner. I’ve never been a runner. The idea of it isn’t “oh it’ll be so much fun!” because I already know that it won’t be. I’m a chubby girl who hates running. Hello, recipe for disaster.

The whole thing surrounding it is to do something I’ve never done. I have never run any length of distance. I think the last mile I willingly ran was in middle school… which means we’re pushing twenty years (let’s ignore for a moment of how old that makes me feel).

To be honest, though, I doubt that’s the only reason. This could be some kind of “all healthy people run” mentality. It could be a “do something that terrifies you.” Hell, it could even be my pride trying to force myself to actually run.

I can’t narrow down motivation for it, except that it’s to do something I’ve never done. I know myself better than to think that’s the only reason. But for now, that’ll be the reason.

So, that’s it. For the seventh year in row… I am saying I’m going to do a 5k.

And at this moment, I can honestly say that I mean it. Let’s just hope that Nicole in 4 months from now doesn’t change her mind *wink*

We shall see!