2019 goals – 5k – again

Can you all believe it’s already closing in on the end of January? We’re three weeks into the new year already. If things keep progressing like they have been, it’ll be just like last year. I’ll be posting in March, hardly believing that “it’s been three months already.”

So before time completely gets away from me, I have a whole list of things that I want to try and accomplish this year! I’m sure a lot of those won’t stick, but it’s the positive mindset that I’ve been looking at.

A lot of those came along while I was thinking of my Non-Scale Victories, and a good majority of them were from my goals page. When I wrote those, I’d honestly thought that I would be able to get through them in 2018. Needless to say I didn’t.

I hadn’t put much thought into them shortly after I’d written that (I know, horrible of me) but with everything that had been going on those goals were the last thing on my mind.

Now, with my whole “balance” theme of the year, I really want to try and get through some of those goals!

Do I think I’ll be able to do a handstand, or the salmon ladder, or Mudderella? Hardly, I have the upper body strength of a guppy. But there are somethings on there that I should be able to accomplish. And the only thing that was holding me back was a weird combination of time restraints, procrastination, and/or pure laziness.

For instance…wasn’t I supposed to do a 5k in September? Obviously that didn’t happened. Yeah, I signed up for the reminders for a certain race. But honestly, I didn’t even start to begin the C25K program (because, hello, there is no way in hell I’m going to be able to run a 5k without anything less than that). I couldn’t even tell you exactly what it was. I had all the excuses… I haven’t started the c25k because I didn’t know when the race was going to be. I can’t sign up for a race because I need at least 3 months to prepare…and there aren’t any in Michigan. I’m too busy, I’m always working.

Yada, yada, yada. The excuses were a mile long.

Dude, I’m great at excuses.

But I’m hoping that I’m able to get off the excuse track and actually start doing something.

So for this year…

I will do a 5k

That has been a goal of mine since 2012… SEVEN YEARS AGO… I’d actually even started the c25k program April of that year. I’d gotten about 3 weeks into, I believe? I was all ready to sign up, I’d even designed shirts. I didn’t go through with it, and to be honest, at this point… I don’t even know what the reason excuse was.

But I’ve been putting it off for seven years. Part of it is that I’m honestly scared to do it. I’m not a runner. I’ve never been a runner. The idea of it isn’t “oh it’ll be so much fun!” because I already know that it won’t be. I’m a chubby girl who hates running. Hello, recipe for disaster.

The whole thing surrounding it is to do something I’ve never done. I have never run any length of distance. I think the last mile I willingly ran was in middle school… which means we’re pushing twenty years (let’s ignore for a moment of how old that makes me feel).

To be honest, though, I doubt that’s the only reason. This could be some kind of “all healthy people run” mentality. It could be a “do something that terrifies you.” Hell, it could even be my pride trying to force myself to actually run.

I can’t narrow down motivation for it, except that it’s to do something I’ve never done. I know myself better than to think that’s the only reason. But for now, that’ll be the reason.

So, that’s it. For the seventh year in row… I am saying I’m going to do a 5k.

And at this moment, I can honestly say that I mean it. Let’s just hope that Nicole in 4 months from now doesn’t change her mind *wink*

We shall see!

CRUSHED THOSE GOALS

So, something obvious happened that for some reason I haven’t screamed from the rooftops, mainly because I felt like I had more important things to discuss (like bad habits and how crazy things had gotten. But now that all of that is out of the way…because this girl right here….today on December 14th….can officially say I HAVE CRUSHED THOSE GOALS.

I MADE IT TO ONEDERLAND!

That is HUGE for me! I’d been sitting at 198 pounds before I got pregnant with little lady.

Which, you know what else that means?

I’M AT MY PRE-PREGNANCY WEIGHT!

So I’m doubly happy!

Hold on… you know what else that means?

I HAVE OFFICIALLY LOST THE 50 POUNDS I GAINED BACK FROM PREGNANCY!

Triple happy!

So this is the second week in a row that I’ve tacked all THREE of those little things off of my list of “things I gotta do” and I’m over the moon. I’m trying not to think about the fact that it took me four years to do this. I’m really trying to not think about all the backsliding I’ve done in the last four years. And I’m definitely trying to not think of the fact that losing 50 pounds in four years is less than 10 pounds a year

Because, you know what? Who freaking cares how long it took me? I did it. I lost 50 pounds. I clawed my way back to ONEderland. I’m back at my pre-pregnancy weight. I’m only 17 itty bitty pounds away from my LOWEST WEIGHT EVER.

I’m allowed to be excited. I’m allowed to be thrilled. Because that is freaking fantastic. And I’m not going to let that little negative voice in my head (I think I’ll call her Nancy) make me feel anything less that PROUD! Because I not only hit ONE goal….I’ve hit three goals! Granted, that’s pretty easy to do when three mile markers for me are all essentially the same weight. But, I’m allowed…because it’s significant!

So, I’m gonna throw myself a little imaginary party with confetti, drum rolls, and rocking 90s music, and I’m gonna do a horrible little disco-esque dance about it too!

BECAUSE I DID ALL OF THAT!

Every day is Weigh In Wednesday

I’ve been naughty…

I generally weigh myself every Wednesday. Regardless if I post or not, I’m still weighing myself. And, admittedly, there have been points in time where I didn’t weigh myself… mainly because I just didn’t think about it. You know how it goes.

But, I went a little bit nuts. I weighed myself THREE times before last week’s weigh in. And it reminded me exactly why I don’t do that. Because the big change in numbers from day to day can drive a gal crazy.

There was a huge jump between those three days.

In order of my impromptu weigh ins…

Friday – 207.4
Sunday – 209.6
Tuesday – 204.3

Look at those differences!

That is insane. Of course there are a ton of reasons just in the last week that could be to blame. How much water vs caffeine I’ve been drinking, how much I’ve been moving, sleep patterns, wine (YOU KNOWS), so many different things. So many things, I can’t really pinpoint it.

The only thing that makes me feel better is that I know I didn’t gain 2 pounds in 2 days, and I most certainly didn’t lose over 5 pounds in 2 days. So, I didn’t actually count last weeks weigh in. I waited until this week until things were a little bit more consistent for me.

It’s just crazy to think how much can change day to day, and made me remind myself exactly why I shouldn’t weigh myself daily. Some people it might work for, not this lady here.

So, this weeks weigh in I stayed true to only weighing myself on Wednesday! Makes things so much simpler!

Last weigh-in: 207.4
This weigh-in: 203
Lost: 4.4
Total lost from highest: 67.7

BAM Look at that! Sure, my last weigh in was a 5 weeks ago, which boils down to less than a pound a week. But considering all the inconsistency in what I’m eating, I’ll definitely take it! That’s for sure.

AND do you know what that means?!?!?!? I HIT A GOAL!!!!

Lose 25% of my highest weight

^^^ Go check it out! I even went and updated the page for the first time in FOREVER!

So, alls I need to do now is lose another 5 pounds and I’ll be sitting at my pre-pregnancy weight! Say whaaat?

Finally, ya’ll. Finally!

AND I’m so close to being under 200 again. It’s been close to 4 years since I’ve been under 200. I don’t even know how to handle it right now.

Of course a lot can happen. But I’m going to sit here and be super excited! #thanksverymuch

FINGERS CROSSED FOR NEXT WEIGH IN!!!!

Running a 5k? Still?

Do you all remember back in December when I’d said something about running a 5k in September?

Well, here we are in April, and that is still the goal. Who’da thought, four months later and that’s still a thing? Considering, when I showed up training last month and our Superwoman Training Head Honcho Superwoman was still 100% gung-ho all abouts it (which of course, made me all gung=ho about it)? Yep, still happening. Do you see what I mean about The WonderWoman of Commitment???

Anyways, still hoping to do the Color Run!

Unfortunately the only ones in our state happened on Monday and it’ll come again in July. I keep obsessively checking the website to see if they’ve updated through to November (we’d heard that they generally have on in November), but they haven’t. #boo

Granted, November pushes our date well past the original September, but still. I’m still pretty optimistic that they’ll have on closer to our date, there is still a city in my state that hasn’t been listed as far as dates go, and I even went and signed up for a notification for when that time comes.

We’re in uncharted territory, people! I don’t believe I’ve actually ever signed up to receive updates. It’s not the same as signing up to actually run it, but still. Baby steps.

So, aside from that preparation… I’m getting ready to start the c25k program all over again.

It’s early, but it takes 9 weeks. And I have no clue when the day is going to be posted. Earlier I start the earlier I can finish. Silver Lining.

Biggest problem right now is the snow. In case you didn’t know, Michigan has no understanding of how seasons work. We have a good 4-8 inches in my area. Definitely not jogging/walking weather for someone who hates running, and also hates being cold. I’m really hoping all this snow is gone by May (how sad is it that us Michiganders can’t be sure if we’ll still have snow in MAY?!) so I can get a good head start in the whole business of running a 5k in general.

I figure if I get going on this devil’s errand as early as possible, I might be in good shape for when I ACTUALLY RUN A 5K.

We shall see!

#goals

We’re talking about goals here, folks.

For some reason, all I can hear is Rihanna hollering “Goals” to the tune of “workworkworkworkwork.” Don’t ask me why, I’m currently working off of very little sleep and even less coffee.

But, I was going to write this whole long post of all of my fitness/weight related/non-scale victory goals. And realized how in the world am I going to keep updating them without just copying posts or digging through archives.

So I’ve made a whole new page!

So go visit my goals page. I had that list of goals for a while, I even had the goals page sitting in my unpublished list of pages. I just never got around to finishing it. Which is why you’ll see my first goal “crossed off” from 2015.

But I have a whole slew of goals. Some are number goals…losing a certain amount of weight. Getting back under 200! Losing a certain percentage of my starting weight. That’s pretty obvious.

Then there are the Non-scale victory goals.

Things like running a 5k, pull ups and push ups, wearing my pre-pregnancy clothes without bursting the seams. That kind of stuff.

Eventually (as in soon) I’d like to have little rewards for when I hit certain mile stones. Like dying my hair for the first time in 2 years… little things to work towards. As though hitting the milestones aren’t reward enough, amirite?

So. Go visit my page. Take a looksee.

While you do that, I’m doubling up on the coffee.