First Weigh-in of the New Year

So here we are at the start of another year. Whew.

Just like reflecting back on how the New Year was to me (or rather, how I was to me this last year) I had to reflect how things went in the weight loss department…because, you know, weight loss blog and all.

First weigh in 2018: 211.2
Last weigh in 2018: 198.2
Total Lost: 13 pounds

So, this is one of those bittersweet moments, because on the plus side I ended the year weighing less that I started. On the “eh” side, I’d lost barely a pound a month (on average).

But this year, I’m determined to make more of an impact with this weight loss. I’m optimistic that the whole mindset I have for balance for this year, will help me make that progress.

This being a New Year most certainly isn’t going to make me into some exercise and nutrition “run forth and conquer” kind of person. I know, like everything else, motivation can fade as time goes by. I’ve just got to be persistent and more dedicated.

So, here we are, a New Year/New Start, the first weigh in of the new year!

Last weigh-in: 198.2
This weigh-in: 197.5
Total Lost: .7
Total lost from highest 66.5

Starting this year off strong! That’s the best thing about a New Year…the motivation it has! Bring it on mentality! But we’ll see how sustainable this is.

In this year, as an homage to my word of the year, I should be more mindful. Balance the food, water, movement…all that fun stuff.

A lot of yo-yoing went on last year. There was a point where I’d gained 8 pounds, lost that…gain 3-4…lose 7… it was a mess. I have no unrealistic thoughts that this year I’m not going to see some of that ping-pong weight loss. But I’m hoping I can be a touch more consistent when it comes to my physical health.

So, we’ll see what 2019 brings for my weight loss and health!

Cheers!

Bad Habits to Break

These last three crazy months have been a lot of focusing on trying to break some bad habits.

I have a lot of bad habits that I have gotten over the last 10+ years, and a lot of them were reinforced repeatedly. And I’m really trying to get them under control.

You know, the typical drinking more water, watching what I’m eating, getting moving, you know all those things are habits that anyone who wants to lose weight wants to have as good habits.

But my worse habit is the way I talk about the things I’m doing. Not specifics, but more phrases. “I was really good!” or “I was bad, I ate more than what I’m supposed to.” Things like that. I don’t know why I’ve always done that. Talked about my weight/eating in terms of bad or good. Or saying things like “supposed to.” That’s my biggest struggle. I’m sure if you go through old posts, you’ll see stuff like that all over the place. Phrases like that aren’t helpful or good for me. It puts me in a block of what is “acceptable” or not.

Which, ironically, I don’t generally do that stuff consciously. It’s stuff that slips out, that I don’t think about. It’s become a horrible habit of mine to just say things like that. I’m big on the whole “low pressure weight loss” thing. If I want an ice cream sundae, sure, why not? It’s not bad or not naughty or wrong. That one decision isn’t something that is going to ruin all of my progress.

Same with the opposite. The days I have that are great days, water/eating/moving… I always tend to say that I did “good.” I don’t know why I feel the need to grade or gauge myself like that. Did I do something good for me? Absolutely! But putting it in a category like that, automatically makes me feel like anything short of that falls into a “bad” category.

That probably sounds like a real trivial thing to worry about. But sometimes, verbiage is the biggest thing that can make it harder for a person to accomplish the things they want to. It’s so much pressure to sit here and worry that if I eat the damn ice cream sundae if I’m being “bad” or making a “bad” choice.

I think “making better choice” is a good way to phrase things. I’m not always going to make GREAT choices. I’ll have days where I make choice that probably could have been better. But really, I’m not looking to make 100% great choices. I’m looking to make choices that will make me move towards my goal without taking away everything in my life that I enjoy (yes, including sundaes.)

The biggest thing is that I don’t want to feel guilty for having a “bad” food. I don’t want to feel guilty because I had a “good” day where I drank my water, hit 20k steps, and ate perfectly…. and then compare all other days to that “good” day.

It’s a lot of pressure that I don’t want or need. And I’ve fallen into that a lot. It’s nothing that I’m going to just “poof” stop saying or thinking… but it’s definitely things that shouldn’t cross my mind as much.

So, I’m actively trying to change the way I talk about my weight or losing weight. But I’m allowed to have days that could be better. I’m allowed to have awesome days without feeling like I’m setting this impossible line to reach.

It took a lot to realize that. And part of that was during that 3 months. That was the biggest thing I had to “get over” was when I was losing weight, it was a lot of “woah, I must be really doing good!” For example: when I’d hit 20,000 steps. I’d felt awesome, I’d said it was a really good day! And it was! But the very next day I barely hit 8,000 and I was so beat up about it. Like, crap, 8,000 steps for someone like me is still really good but I couldn’t connect that… because it wasn’t “20,000 steps good.”

I know, I know, we’re our own competition. But it’s only good for you if it’s something you can maintain, and doesn’t make you feel like crap later. Strive for doing better, not doing perfect!!!

#progressnotperfection

Progress – weigh in Wednesday

So after my blog setback last week I’m super thrilled that I didn’t lose everything. Especially all of my weigh ins. There’s something super nostalgic about reading through my old weigh ins and blog posts, and I’m so happy I didn’t lose them.

So, aside from that drama. We’re onwards and upwards, right? This week is all about progress, because that’s what I’ve been making!

So my last weigh in was a good one! Down 4 pounds in 5 weeks. I’m not complaining. And there is exactly zero things for me to complain about this week!

Last weigh-in: 203
This weigh-in: 201.6
Lost: 1.4
Total lost from highest: 69.1

A pound and a half people! Look at that!

Ok, ok, so a teeny tiny part of me was a bit disappointed that I wasn’t sitting under 200 for the first time in 4 years, but I’m keeping my chin up. Because a pound and a half in a week is totally ok, and it’s a good pace!

And who am I kidding? IT’S A LOSS! And it’s progress. The first real progress I feel like I’ve seen in a long time.

I’m over the moon.

Do you have any idea how long it’s been since I weighed 201 pounds? I’ve been bouncing around between 205 and 215 for well over a year. So it’s so freaking nice to see the scale actually move down again.

Now all I have to do is keep that downward trend. I can’t get cocky and be all “eh, I lost weight…I can go crazy with the muffins this week.” You know how it goes.

But hey, look at me go! Another pound and a half off the books!

Yes!

Total weeks of consecutive weight loss: TWO

January 2.0

January went by quick. Quicker than I realized. I swear it was just Christmas. Anywhosit. Clearly I missed a few weeks. Several weeks, in fact. And I haven’t really thought about anything except “what else do I have to get done??”

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I don’t even know where to begin, other than. HAPPY NEW NEW Year! January 2.0, I might say.

I think with the doozy of a last million couple years, I’m allowed to have a re-do. I’m thinking we can all have a re-do month.

I’ll admit, I haven’t done much about weight. Except thought about it. All.The.Time. Which you’d think would be motivation enough, but of course not. We’ve come to the conclusion that I need more than just my conscious going “yass gurl, do it.” Right?

Don’t get me wrong, I have done a certain level of “things.” I’ve been walking more, I actually walked 3 miles and didn’t die! Granted, I probably could have done it more often than I did, but I still did it. I’ll hopefully be doing more walking throughout my week. And I’ve started making sure I do my beginners yoga at least 3 times a week, plus my nightly yoga routine.

I’ve been finding reasons to stand more at work, which is huge. I generally spend over half my week sitting, which isn’t good. Even when I’m not sitting, I can’t really consider it being too active. I’d actually considered finding a standing desk, but those suckers are EXPENSIVE. As in $300 expensive. I did find a way to raise a desk, but mine is metal… but the general asthetic seems easiest enough to build completely.

Inspo, found on Pinterest

Sure, that isn’t much. I could be doing a lot more, but it’s a start. And it was consistent all throughout January.

Small steps, down the line will add up to bigger things. Hopefully, at the very least.

Happy New Year! Weigh in Wednesday

Happy New Year!

I hope your holiday season was amazing! Between Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years, it was a busy last two months.

My New Years Eve was spent having a phenomenal spread of New Years Eve treats, and champagne, and a rocking sequinned dress! Toasting to 2018, watching the ball drop, smootching away when 2018 hit. It was amazing.

Who am I kidding!?

I was in my pajamas, fast asleep. Because I’m that kind of person.

But it’s the New Year. A brand new year to think things through! Um, yay?

Anywhoits, I’m going to jump right into the New Year with a weigh-in! How appropriate?!

My last weigh in I’d gained a whopping 8 pounds. 8 whole pounds of weight gain. What the ever loving crap. But, it knocked some sense into me. I can’t talk about wanting to make a plan, about being serious about losing weight, and then gain 8 pounds. Phew.

Pulled up my big girl pants, and had to focus on some stuff.

Last weigh-in: 213.6
This weigh-in: 211.2
Lost: 2.3
Total lost from highest: 59.9

But I’ll take that 2 pound loss! Absolutely!

What’s kind of less happy to think about is my first weigh in in 2017. Back in July. I’d proclaimed to the world that I’d lost 25 pounds! I was super proud of myself!

I’d started back to blogging with a weigh in I was happy to post about. I was weighing in at 212.3, down from 237.5!

In the last 5 months, I’ve lost actually lost 1.1 pounds.

Can we say EW?

But we’re moving on. It’s a NEW YEAR, and focusing on that isn’t going to do me any favors. Looking to the future and getting going! I don’t want to look back on this year and see the same kinds of things. Ultimate goal is to get to my goal weight before I’m 30. I’m just under two years away. If I can get there sooner, awesome. But I’m taking it one month at a time. Being positive, and working towards it.