Reflecting on 2018

Here we are! New Years Eve! The last official day of 2018! We’re taking a break from all the weight loss talk in favor of reflecting on 2018! So, this time last year, I made myself a New Years Resoltion…now I’m not a huge fan of New Years Resolutions. For some reason I did them last year. My logic was that if it wasn’t something like “you have to lose weight” or “I will quit biting my nails” that I might actually do those things. So, I went for more of a general one. My New Years Resolutions last year boiled down to essentially “Be nicer to myself.” I initially wanted to just scoff and be a negative Nancy about that. Because in the larger scale of things, maybe I wasn’t all too nice to myself. I didn’t do much in the way of taking care of my health (sorry Doc for the several cancelled appointments), I went overboard on the whole “over working” aspect and boy was I stressed out. But at the end of every year, we really should take that chance to reflect on the last year. Right?

But there were some things that I did actually do.

Take mental health days
I actually took time off from work! Rather than raking in just under 200 hours of unused paid time off (my job in INSANELY generous when it comes to personal time off!!!), I actually used some of those hours! Which is HUGE for me. Granted, one of those times was a “Nicole, I think you need some time off before you explode moments” but I did take a couple days off here and there. I even scheduled a MASSIVE 6 days away for myself (sure, it only ended up as 4… but #progressnotperfection).

That might not seem like much, but consider in 2017 I only actually used a fraction of that, is remarkable to me.

Have more me time
This was the one I really struggled with, because with everything that I have going on, it’s really hard to find time to do things strictly for me, especially when all my time is wrapped up with taking care of everyone else. For a while there (I admittedly dropped the ball on this a few months ago) I was doing my nails pretty regularly! I even tried out almond shaped nails…which eventually turned into stiletto…big moment of stepping outside of my comfort zone . And even more recently, I start sporting my natural hair and wearing make up more often than “I have to do an interview today”! It was nice to have moments (even if it was only 45 minutes once a week) to spend painting my nails or watching a TV show or some other “menial task” that I always managed to ignore.

And last but not least Slow down and smell the daisies (not a big rose fan)
But, the biggest things that I’d started was back in October, definitely not an entire year. But I started journaling. That’s been a big one for me. Getting my thoughts out onto paper, reflecting on all the good things happening around me, I needed that. It wasn’t a daily kind of thing, but it was nice little outlet. I tried to keep it as positive as possible! I was doodling, reflecting on “little happies” and even started keeping track of the “good” things that were happening… which needing to keep track of sounds horrible, but seriously, taking a second to see the good things among all the stress and frustration was amazing!

While it wasn’t like 2018 was an astounding year, and my “resolution” fell short in the “MY YEAR WAS AMAZING” department, it definitely cleared things up in my head. There were absolutely things that I didn’t accomplish that I wanted to, there were moments where I just wanted to give up and become a hermit, and more often than not I was stressed and frustrated… but there were shining moments that I was nice to myself. The balance I was hoping for certainly wasn’t there, but it was a good starting point.

And that’s what I’m looking for in 2019. That balance. Being nice to myself is more than just moments here and there. And finding that balance of doing what needs to be done and being nice to myself is key!

So here’s thanks to 2018 for not sucking as bad as 2017.

Happy New Years Eve everyone!

And the countdown begins

It’s the last Friday of the year! The last weekend of the year! The last EVERYTHING of the year! The countdown begins to 2018!

Since New Years falls on a Monday this year, I’m not planning on posting. So here you are, an early snippet into my 2018.

Which of course, means that soon your Facebook/Twitter/Instagram feeds are going to be overloaded with New Years Resolutions!

Last year I all but ignored resolutions. I’m not real big on the whole New Years Resolution thing. Back in the day, it was always some HUGE and SUPER IMPORTANT thing I was going to stop doing. I don’t do well with taking orders from myself. If any and all plans I have made in the health department of my life are ANY indication.

But this year, I need things to be different. I seriously need to start taking orders from myself. If I don’t, what’s the point?

Anyways,

2017 was a crazy/intense year. Less crazy/intense than 2016. And let’s not even get started on 2015/14.

Rather than saying things like “I’m going to stop [fill in the blanks]” I’m going into 2018 with some more positive resolutions.

I’m going to be nicer to myself
I’d started with making a list of all the things I want to change about myself. I noticed two things right away. #1 the vast majority of them weren’t weight related. Huge surprise there! It was more along the lines of be happier, less stressed, more patient… so on and so forth. #2 A lot of them were things I should be doing, and have no idea why I don’t.

Take mental health days I know I’ve said this before, but I have a job that can cause a lot of stress. Plus I’m a very obsessive kind of person, and I can get wrapped up into work far too hard. I’m not talking about taking a month off or anything. But here and there, maybe taking a long weekend? Or when I need a second to decompress, actually communicating those needs rather than shoving it all down and pulling a classic “Nicole’s lost grip of reality!!!!” moment. Actually plan a week vacation and do it? That kind of stuff.

Have more “me” time
Do the things I don’t give myself time to do. Do my hair, my make up, my nails. Take a bubble bath? Maybe get my eyebrows waxed for the first time in well over a year. Go and actually see my friends rather than “hey, it was so good seeing you six months ago!” Read a book? Go see a movie? (The last movie I went and watched in a theater was Deadpool back in 2016). Things like that!

Slow down and smell the daisies (not a big rose fan)
I’m busy. Ridiculously busy. Between work, blogging, my book… I don’t have much time. Then silly ol’ me, decided to reapply to college… It’s a lot to juggle. Especially having two kids. I’m used to busy. I’ve always been busy. But just because I’m busy, doesn’t mean that I don’t have time to do things and enjoy things. Rather than having thoughts in the back of my mind (work, book, blogging) while I’m in the middle of those moments. Focus 100% on the good parts of my life, rather than always having something floating in the back of my mind that I “have to do.”

Those are the three big things right now. Of course, I have my weight related goals. But that isn’t so much a New Years Resolution kind of thing, those are things I would like to accomplish, of course. But I know that my mental health is just as important as physical health, more so in some aspects. And, let’s face it, mental health has a huge impact on physical health.

So it’s a win-win!

So, let’s raise our glasses to the New Year! To our resolutions!

I hope your 2018 is even better than your 2017!
I hope your New Years Resolutions stick!
I hope your holiday season was phenomenal!

Good luck to all of you who have resolutions!

Happy New Years!